i think i have a new favourite episode. <3
ETA: ok, now that i've eaten some ice and gathered my composure
in these last few seasons there have been a few "love letter" episodes (namely the musical ep and "baby") and though this one wasn't an OBVIOUS love letter episode i still think it qualifies, and nothing, nothing, gets to me the way love letter episodes do.
i don't even think i can bullet point how many parts of this ep felt like they were reaching out and touching my heart. the amulet (which sam had THE WHOLE TIME #CONFIRMED), the kripke references, the s1 references, rob singing, rob in general, "i'm not leaving you, ever," "lucifer wasn't my favourite," hell, even fucking metatron's monologues--and i HATE METATRON. I HATE HIM. but he grew in this ep, and he brought back that all-important touchstone of spn: that humans are flawed, but they are good.
this was just everything i needed, everything i wanted. everything i could have possibly asked for from an episode. it was beautifully shot, gorgeously written. even though sam and dean weren't at the center of it you could still feel them palpably, their influence hanging over chuck and metatron. and the fact that chuck doesn't answer prayers (and you wouldn't want him to), but listens when dean calls him a dick--brings back the dead--man. what a breathless moment. and the brothers seeing him in the street, the amulet glowing, and no need for weird dialogue or exposition, just, "i think we should talk." something that no doubt both brothers have been waiting for for years and years and years, the chance to just talk with god.
man i could go on forev er.
what an incredible relentless thing.