constants aren't so constant anymore

[steena627]

the past two weeks have been this whirlwind of emotions. i almost dont know how to react to anything anymore. everything that i am happy about is constantly being counteracted by something else. not to say that i have been sad and depressed, ive just been stressed out. most of my friends have been uprooted and they all have a lot going on in their lives and through helping them out, i have caused a few problems for myself. but its nothing that cant be fixed and i just hope that in the end everyone is still friends and it all works out. i am sure it will. on top of all this i have two weeks until i leave for my trip, which i am insanely anxious about. it was worse last week but long phone conversations with my mom and good talks with jackie have really lifted my spirits about the whole thing. i cant wait. this is going to be an insane experience, i cant believe its so close.

i am going out of town today and i am just hoping that this trip will be stress free and help me to get my mind off some things. well, time to pack and visit lauren at work before i head out. i never expected my summer to be so eventful!!