What the fuck?
I was just meandering over the last two years of entries on here and realized...I was really funny and joyful at one point.
What the fuck?
I was happy!
I was damn happy.
With a few stints of depression here and there.
Otherwise I was really truly happy.
I need to get back to square one erase all this shit.
One day I'm going to look back on this and laugh.
One day I will laugh hysterically at how juvenile I was.
In all actuality I am laughing now.
I know what I now need to do in order to stop being so damn depressed.
Forget about women.
Forget about women for now.
Just live your life and if it unfolds it will.
If it doesn't you are only twenty. You have a lot of time.
Who cares if anyone else has someone.
I don't need someone because I am better off alone.
I function better. I act better. I feel better.
Me and my music.
I am surprised that I didn't think of it before.
I even stopped going to movies because no one else would go with me.
That's just strange for me. I always used to go to movies alone because I wanted to see a movie.
I just can't believe how silly this all is.
I am depressed over nothing.
I am depressed over the routine of my life. Over the ins and outs that everyone goes through.
Wake up man.
Smile.
Hang out with friends.
Call people.
Have parties.
Go to parties.
Live life before you can't.
I think I'm actually going to live life this year. I think I am actually going to invest in myself.
I can't believe that it was just this simple.
Tomorrow I am going into work with a smile.
Tomorrow nothing will bother me because I know that I have to take the ups and downs if I can learn anything.
As much as I love Danielle and as much as I don't want to see her with another guy, I just have to let go.
For her to be happy, I have to let her go.
For me to be happy, I have to let her go.
It's funny how I can come home from work distressed and angry and depressed, thinking about driving into oncoming traffic, to understanding how life works.
From now on if I see someone attractive, I'm going to tell them that.
If I think you're an asshole, I'm going to tell you that.
In the meantime, I want to go hang out with friends.
Friends from high school.
I am going to hang out with Dooley, my favorite Jew, Owens, Courtney, Daniel, Ryan, Kendal.
When Mike comes back, I will make room for him. I think I want to drive back to Pennsylvania this summer. I really think that is going to happen. Fuck what my parents say. It's going to happen.
I love this new feeling now. For the first time in quite a while, I am smiling with my eyes.
One more thing, I noticed in looking at all of my posts within the last two years, Neuman has commented the most. I thank you for that.
For that you get a Valentine's Day hug. Get over here you!!!!
What the fuck?
I was happy!
I was damn happy.
With a few stints of depression here and there.
Otherwise I was really truly happy.
I need to get back to square one erase all this shit.
One day I'm going to look back on this and laugh.
One day I will laugh hysterically at how juvenile I was.
In all actuality I am laughing now.
I know what I now need to do in order to stop being so damn depressed.
Forget about women.
Forget about women for now.
Just live your life and if it unfolds it will.
If it doesn't you are only twenty. You have a lot of time.
Who cares if anyone else has someone.
I don't need someone because I am better off alone.
I function better. I act better. I feel better.
Me and my music.
I am surprised that I didn't think of it before.
I even stopped going to movies because no one else would go with me.
That's just strange for me. I always used to go to movies alone because I wanted to see a movie.
I just can't believe how silly this all is.
I am depressed over nothing.
I am depressed over the routine of my life. Over the ins and outs that everyone goes through.
Wake up man.
Smile.
Hang out with friends.
Call people.
Have parties.
Go to parties.
Live life before you can't.
I think I'm actually going to live life this year. I think I am actually going to invest in myself.
I can't believe that it was just this simple.
Tomorrow I am going into work with a smile.
Tomorrow nothing will bother me because I know that I have to take the ups and downs if I can learn anything.
As much as I love Danielle and as much as I don't want to see her with another guy, I just have to let go.
For her to be happy, I have to let her go.
For me to be happy, I have to let her go.
It's funny how I can come home from work distressed and angry and depressed, thinking about driving into oncoming traffic, to understanding how life works.
From now on if I see someone attractive, I'm going to tell them that.
If I think you're an asshole, I'm going to tell you that.
In the meantime, I want to go hang out with friends.
Friends from high school.
I am going to hang out with Dooley, my favorite Jew, Owens, Courtney, Daniel, Ryan, Kendal.
When Mike comes back, I will make room for him. I think I want to drive back to Pennsylvania this summer. I really think that is going to happen. Fuck what my parents say. It's going to happen.
I love this new feeling now. For the first time in quite a while, I am smiling with my eyes.
One more thing, I noticed in looking at all of my posts within the last two years, Neuman has commented the most. I thank you for that.
For that you get a Valentine's Day hug. Get over here you!!!!