Just killing time
Got all my xmas shopping done today, yippie-kah-yeah. My first two purchases for E were without a hitch, then the suck began. I wandered around Macy's holding the same clothes for about 45 minutes, until I decided they weren't what I wanted for him. It all worked out though. I had to return something I'd bought last month and found some other things, then buy something for Jane and came across more bueno things. I don't know how the hell I used to buy for my entire family and friends back in the day. This shit is stressful. Thankfully I actually want to shop for my mate instead of feeling like I'm the atm in the relationship this time around.
That leads me to my attitude. I've totally been in denial it's the holidays, and bah-humbug about it all. Not a real biggie I guess, but a pain nonetheless. I spent some time while driving thinking about a gf of mine who is in a cruddy situation but is being halfheartedly positive that 2009 will bring better days, and began to snap out of my typical cranky holiday mood.
2008 has been really good to me. I wrapped up things in Tucson and got out here to LA, excited about the new opportunities my promotion would give me, happy to get out of homeownership and away from J and the grind we had established. Out of that shitty small city. Indy's 1M population had so much more to offer than Tucson's. E and I came across each other, which has been the most bizarre, enlightening, fab person I've come across in quite some time. Work enabled me to be the worker personality that I always wanted to be but wasn't able to. I've become better at communicating with those in my immediate surroundings....way better. Got out of the country. Applied to the PC. Found out that people do love truly, and got reminded that everyone will let you down, myself included. Gave up the Chuy-monster. Staid on the straight and narrow for the second time in my life. Lost more weight in a month than ever before, and put it right back on. Stopped smoking and started back up. Regretted keeping in close touch with friends, unlike I used to.
I may hate LA and all of the people that comprise the traffic, but wouldn't trade this year for any of the good ones I've lived. May there be many more like this....
That leads me to my attitude. I've totally been in denial it's the holidays, and bah-humbug about it all. Not a real biggie I guess, but a pain nonetheless. I spent some time while driving thinking about a gf of mine who is in a cruddy situation but is being halfheartedly positive that 2009 will bring better days, and began to snap out of my typical cranky holiday mood.
2008 has been really good to me. I wrapped up things in Tucson and got out here to LA, excited about the new opportunities my promotion would give me, happy to get out of homeownership and away from J and the grind we had established. Out of that shitty small city. Indy's 1M population had so much more to offer than Tucson's. E and I came across each other, which has been the most bizarre, enlightening, fab person I've come across in quite some time. Work enabled me to be the worker personality that I always wanted to be but wasn't able to. I've become better at communicating with those in my immediate surroundings....way better. Got out of the country. Applied to the PC. Found out that people do love truly, and got reminded that everyone will let you down, myself included. Gave up the Chuy-monster. Staid on the straight and narrow for the second time in my life. Lost more weight in a month than ever before, and put it right back on. Stopped smoking and started back up. Regretted keeping in close touch with friends, unlike I used to.
I may hate LA and all of the people that comprise the traffic, but wouldn't trade this year for any of the good ones I've lived. May there be many more like this....