Ya know..
I am seriously not ready for it to be Monday already. I am dreading going back to work. I hate that I feel like this and man, it pisses me off to think that a room of 5 & 6 yr olds can make me feel like this. I really dont feel that I am helping or bettering these kids educational future in any way whatsoever. I really need it to be friday already cause after friday, we are off for a week. Yay.
*
Been having trouble sleeping too. ( if ya couldnt tell by the midnight post even though i need to be up in 5 hours )Having some really weird dreams. Last night when i managed to get to sleep, I had a dream that I went hiking ( yeah right..me??? thats how i knew it was a dream ) well anyway.. I was hiking with a group to a certain point and then they just turned around and said 'Ok, this is where we leave you.' and they disappeared in a Trek like transporter leaving me in the middle of no where with no supplies except a box of matches. Spent what seemed like days freakin out cause I was trapped in the mountainous wilderness all alone, being chased by bears and mountain lions and shit. And the nights in my dream were horrible. Yous guys know that i amn afraid of the dark... well it doesnt get any more freaky than being lost in the thick wilderness.. alone..in the dark.. I woke up in mid panic attack. I GOTTA stop watching 'Survivorman' late at night.
*
Having my same damn recurring dream too. Funny how over the past several months I rarely had nightmares about my past abuse but once we decide to head back north for a trip, the nightmares return. Fuckin sucks. SO tired of living with this burden. When will it ever go away? Will it ever go away?
*
Been having trouble sleeping too. ( if ya couldnt tell by the midnight post even though i need to be up in 5 hours )Having some really weird dreams. Last night when i managed to get to sleep, I had a dream that I went hiking ( yeah right..me??? thats how i knew it was a dream ) well anyway.. I was hiking with a group to a certain point and then they just turned around and said 'Ok, this is where we leave you.' and they disappeared in a Trek like transporter leaving me in the middle of no where with no supplies except a box of matches. Spent what seemed like days freakin out cause I was trapped in the mountainous wilderness all alone, being chased by bears and mountain lions and shit. And the nights in my dream were horrible. Yous guys know that i amn afraid of the dark... well it doesnt get any more freaky than being lost in the thick wilderness.. alone..in the dark.. I woke up in mid panic attack. I GOTTA stop watching 'Survivorman' late at night.
*
Having my same damn recurring dream too. Funny how over the past several months I rarely had nightmares about my past abuse but once we decide to head back north for a trip, the nightmares return. Fuckin sucks. SO tired of living with this burden. When will it ever go away? Will it ever go away?