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what is it about the mountains when its raining? there is some kind of mystic force that brings whatever problems or fucked up veiws of reality come boiling to the serface.
of course there is no escape, it is so much easier to just smile and pretend everything is fine... of course we have heard all of this before... whats the point right?
god it is so damn beautiful up there really. Pitch dark, not able to see one foot in front of you and the rain is pounding on the roof, its the rythmic sound it gets your brain working on over time, not allowing for anything, and i do mean anything to be held back, or hidden.
I guess it was time for me to talk to about to someone... my closet just kept getting filled until there was no more room for any more secrets, any more lies, any more questions.
An open mouth gathers no foot.
I came to one realization last night, i'm lonely.
and i have a very strong fear of abandonment...
Here's a question why must we as human beings always feel like we need to be around people to function?
Something else I figured out... I think I have a pretty good Idea of what women and men want. both want pretty much the same thing... woman what someone to take care of them so do men...we want to know that there will always be some one there when we are in pain that will be right there to travel throught that pain with us.... there's someone there that will fill any void we may have, we don't want to feel loss.
Interesting how some people react to the same feeling of loss, some people lock themselves off, that way you never have to feel lost, because you never left. others throw themselves into any kind of relationship just because its there, doomed to be forever lost. both reactions are not a solution, but we still do it.
What is it about the mountains when its raining?
of course there is no escape, it is so much easier to just smile and pretend everything is fine... of course we have heard all of this before... whats the point right?
god it is so damn beautiful up there really. Pitch dark, not able to see one foot in front of you and the rain is pounding on the roof, its the rythmic sound it gets your brain working on over time, not allowing for anything, and i do mean anything to be held back, or hidden.
I guess it was time for me to talk to about to someone... my closet just kept getting filled until there was no more room for any more secrets, any more lies, any more questions.
An open mouth gathers no foot.
I came to one realization last night, i'm lonely.
and i have a very strong fear of abandonment...
Here's a question why must we as human beings always feel like we need to be around people to function?
Something else I figured out... I think I have a pretty good Idea of what women and men want. both want pretty much the same thing... woman what someone to take care of them so do men...we want to know that there will always be some one there when we are in pain that will be right there to travel throught that pain with us.... there's someone there that will fill any void we may have, we don't want to feel loss.
Interesting how some people react to the same feeling of loss, some people lock themselves off, that way you never have to feel lost, because you never left. others throw themselves into any kind of relationship just because its there, doomed to be forever lost. both reactions are not a solution, but we still do it.
What is it about the mountains when its raining?