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I need help.
I can’t go and talk to my dad he just won’t understand, neither will anyone else on his side of the family. My mom might understand but I can’t go to her again, I just don’t know what to do anymore. Almost everyday for the past few weeks I’ve thought about how easy it would be to just eat the barrel of a shotgun. I’m scared because I’ve come so close to doing it lately, and I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I’ve realized everything I have ever wanted to do with my life I have fucked up, and failed everything I try to do. I just want this pain gone, I want to live a normal hell semi-normal life, or I don’t want to live anymore, it just hurts so much, every night when I go to bed I think about cutting or ending it, and then in the morning I think about it again. Living with my dad just makes it worse because he doesn’t understand why I feel this way, and I can’t even tell him how bad it really is. I just don’t know what to do anymore.
I need help.
I can’t go and talk to my dad he just won’t understand, neither will anyone else on his side of the family. My mom might understand but I can’t go to her again, I just don’t know what to do anymore. Almost everyday for the past few weeks I’ve thought about how easy it would be to just eat the barrel of a shotgun. I’m scared because I’ve come so close to doing it lately, and I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I’ve realized everything I have ever wanted to do with my life I have fucked up, and failed everything I try to do. I just want this pain gone, I want to live a normal hell semi-normal life, or I don’t want to live anymore, it just hurts so much, every night when I go to bed I think about cutting or ending it, and then in the morning I think about it again. Living with my dad just makes it worse because he doesn’t understand why I feel this way, and I can’t even tell him how bad it really is. I just don’t know what to do anymore.
I need help.