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[steel_dream]

For once, it wasn't about you
or your reputation
or how what i said would effect you.

It was about me
my reputation
how I felt
how I was effected.

And for the first time
it was made vividly clear to me
that those nagging thoughts in the back of my mind
the ones that tell me i deserve to be treated better
that tell me how lucky u are are that I am how I am to you
that tell me I make too many excuses for u
aren't just me being selfish
or paranoid
or jealous.
Those thoughts are real
valid
and in many cases
true.

And yes, I love you always
and yes, I know you love me as well
deeply
strangly
the most passionate of platonic ways.

But it's about time someone other than me told you
ur a big boy now
start treating me like the woman i am
and deserve to be treated as.
I'm sacred too.
Precious.
And i'll be damned
if I let my *best friend* make me feel like anything less.

So this is your warning
your wake up call.

Don't let me down at this point
We've come much too far for dissapointments now.