So Much Stuff...
Wow,
It has been forever and a day since I have updated this journal.
I had not realized just how busy I have gotten.
My layout is wacked out right now because I had to change some nameservers so my normal layout will be back very soon.
Okay, so I am really upset tonight. I have been crying here and there because I feel really hopeless.
Josiah went to Lee today. He has been wanting to go there for a long time and finally was able to visit for his baseball tryouts.
I am really unsure of how to feel because I feel he should have called me to tell me how his visit there was today, and if he enjoyed his time meeting my best friend. Instead I hear all sorts of raves about him from my best friend (which I am trying so hard to fight the jealousy because she is much more prettier and is much better person in a whole than I am).
So I talk to Nik for a while as she was telling me everything they talked about, how she met his Mom and everything was great. I went to call him to find out how he liked it but he didn't answer, nor did he call back. So I am guessing he went to bed. I would have thought that while he was driving to Tennessee from Kansas he would have called to tell me how his trip is going but no...I call him.
I would have thought that he would have called me right away after he visited Lee and got to meet my best friend (I could not be there because I am working in Kentucky) but no..he doesn't.
I am so hurt right now. I know he is probably tired from driving but still. It hurts.
I can't even show him that I am upset though because that would mean I am putting myself in a girlfriend kind of mode, and I can't do that right now.
Okay, none of this is going to make sense. So I will stop now.
It has been forever and a day since I have updated this journal.
I had not realized just how busy I have gotten.
My layout is wacked out right now because I had to change some nameservers so my normal layout will be back very soon.
Okay, so I am really upset tonight. I have been crying here and there because I feel really hopeless.
Josiah went to Lee today. He has been wanting to go there for a long time and finally was able to visit for his baseball tryouts.
I am really unsure of how to feel because I feel he should have called me to tell me how his visit there was today, and if he enjoyed his time meeting my best friend. Instead I hear all sorts of raves about him from my best friend (which I am trying so hard to fight the jealousy because she is much more prettier and is much better person in a whole than I am).
So I talk to Nik for a while as she was telling me everything they talked about, how she met his Mom and everything was great. I went to call him to find out how he liked it but he didn't answer, nor did he call back. So I am guessing he went to bed. I would have thought that while he was driving to Tennessee from Kansas he would have called to tell me how his trip is going but no...I call him.
I would have thought that he would have called me right away after he visited Lee and got to meet my best friend (I could not be there because I am working in Kentucky) but no..he doesn't.
I am so hurt right now. I know he is probably tired from driving but still. It hurts.
I can't even show him that I am upset though because that would mean I am putting myself in a girlfriend kind of mode, and I can't do that right now.
Okay, none of this is going to make sense. So I will stop now.