Christmas
So Christmas didn't feel like christmas to me this year. I don't know if it is because Joe wasn't there or what, perhaps the lack of snow. But it wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be. Dad found a way to get into the spirit a little bit dispite his longing for Joe. I got a gift from Joe, and I wish mom hadn't done it, I cried when no one was looking. I don't want anything from him, it doesn't feel right. To top it off I have been talking to Justin alot (One of Joe's best friends, the boy written about in my last entry). He usually calls me about once a day...it would have been nice to talk to him about all this Joe stuff, he understands better than others for obvious reasons. But he was arrested last wednesday, and is in jail so I haven't been able to talk to him for almost a week! (Stupid Child support shit!) So i won't be able to talk to him until Feb! He's in jail for 45 days! Holy Crap! His wife is supposed to keep me up to date on things, but I haven't heard from her since Friday. It's weird to go from talking to someone every day to not hearing from them at all...I don't like it. And to make matters worse, because our work schedules don't match up I haven't seen Jay since Saturday...that was only for an hour...and I won't see him again until thursday! I need to get a regular 40/week 9-5 job so I can have human interaction outside of school and work. But at least it's winter break and i have a month off of school!