I see How it is.
So this is my line of thinking,
From my personal experience, people don't forget about things that are important to them. SO a certain someone told me that they were gonna call me and come over because I didn't feel that well, so I go downstairs, watch Lords of Dogtown, which was a very excellent movie btw, and I take a nap. I wake up hours later and the someone hasn't come over yet and has evidently forgot about me. So I am angry, esp. since I decided to try harder n not push ppl away when they just wanna be my friend n hang out with me. And then i go talk to my friend about it and I realize that being angry is stupid. Why care about someone if they don't care about me. So i get online n the person ims me n says their sorry. N they tell me that they totally forgot about coming to see me and they instead went and hung out with my friends without me. By that time I'm not even mad, which the person expected me to be. Their like "how come ur not mad" and I'm like "I always care about what other ppl think and what their doing, and its stupid because they don't care about what i'm doing or what I think, so i'm not going to waste my time." The someone proceeded to tell me that they thought I was mad when I'm honestly not anymore, which sort of made me mad lol, but only slightly. I don't want anymore drama, i just want to finish high school and go to Towson. I'm sooo excited to be going and i can't wait to get there. I'll finally get to be somewhere that I want to be where people are HAPPY. I've been through sooooo much shit this year and i just want it all to end and I don't have time to sit here and be mad because someone forgot about me or because someone thinks i'm being a bitch or because people didn't invite me somewhere, when i have the best friend anyone could ask for plus more friends on top of that and a bunch of new ones to come at Towson.
so all in all i had an upsetting day but I realized that i just can't let stupid things get to me when they really don't matter in the end.
From my personal experience, people don't forget about things that are important to them. SO a certain someone told me that they were gonna call me and come over because I didn't feel that well, so I go downstairs, watch Lords of Dogtown, which was a very excellent movie btw, and I take a nap. I wake up hours later and the someone hasn't come over yet and has evidently forgot about me. So I am angry, esp. since I decided to try harder n not push ppl away when they just wanna be my friend n hang out with me. And then i go talk to my friend about it and I realize that being angry is stupid. Why care about someone if they don't care about me. So i get online n the person ims me n says their sorry. N they tell me that they totally forgot about coming to see me and they instead went and hung out with my friends without me. By that time I'm not even mad, which the person expected me to be. Their like "how come ur not mad" and I'm like "I always care about what other ppl think and what their doing, and its stupid because they don't care about what i'm doing or what I think, so i'm not going to waste my time." The someone proceeded to tell me that they thought I was mad when I'm honestly not anymore, which sort of made me mad lol, but only slightly. I don't want anymore drama, i just want to finish high school and go to Towson. I'm sooo excited to be going and i can't wait to get there. I'll finally get to be somewhere that I want to be where people are HAPPY. I've been through sooooo much shit this year and i just want it all to end and I don't have time to sit here and be mad because someone forgot about me or because someone thinks i'm being a bitch or because people didn't invite me somewhere, when i have the best friend anyone could ask for plus more friends on top of that and a bunch of new ones to come at Towson.
so all in all i had an upsetting day but I realized that i just can't let stupid things get to me when they really don't matter in the end.