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So I canceled my date again....
I dont care. I dont want to date. It's no fun and yeah I understand my friends feelings that it's necessary for me to keep busy but I'de rather just chill with friends than lead these men on. I'm not comfortable with that. I dont want that, I dont want that. What I want I cant get and that's fine I understand that, but I dont see any reason I should settle. So yeah instead I went to see a movie with Domingo, which was good... I had fun, and today he didnt make any stupid comments. So that was nice. Then I met up with Monique and went to art bar, it was nice to chill with her.... wasted on free drinks with men steady approaching. The "I'm with my girlfriend, and she'll get jealous" line worked for awhile so that's good. Then I started talking to this guy and he's gonna see me at work. SO great now me and Monique have to be lesbians at work. haahahhahaha.
But for the most part I'm numb at the moment so overall the night was a success. Now I need to keep up my strength and never call that mother fucker again.
I dont care. I dont want to date. It's no fun and yeah I understand my friends feelings that it's necessary for me to keep busy but I'de rather just chill with friends than lead these men on. I'm not comfortable with that. I dont want that, I dont want that. What I want I cant get and that's fine I understand that, but I dont see any reason I should settle. So yeah instead I went to see a movie with Domingo, which was good... I had fun, and today he didnt make any stupid comments. So that was nice. Then I met up with Monique and went to art bar, it was nice to chill with her.... wasted on free drinks with men steady approaching. The "I'm with my girlfriend, and she'll get jealous" line worked for awhile so that's good. Then I started talking to this guy and he's gonna see me at work. SO great now me and Monique have to be lesbians at work. haahahhahaha.
But for the most part I'm numb at the moment so overall the night was a success. Now I need to keep up my strength and never call that mother fucker again.