another (bad) dream

[steadysearching]

not to make sense so much as to record (sorry)

So yea you left me
and you left me for her
and i was in some kind of hospital i think and this guy all dressed in white kept pushing up on me and i was disgusted at first, but then i almost went for it because i was so angry at you for leaving me
then my dream blips out and i am in a doctors office and they tell me i have cervical cancer and i am going to die soon...

I guess taking those tylenol pms last night was a bad idea...

i feel so fucking alone right now
and i am confused because technically you are mine so why do I feel like you're not?
and of course i cant say any of this to you right now because that would be selfish, but at the same time i cant talk to anyone about this because it's my secret to keep, not that anyone would want to listen anyways.
so i feel like i'm gonna lose it all by myself instead.
i mean at least if i was talking to you i could lose myself in the fact that i was taking care of you....

i dont know (as always)

I promoted myself at work last night, i'm a manager now