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my favorite memory...
not some grand moment or fantastic time....
we were hanging out at my house and I took a shower, he sat in the bathroom and talked to me while I did and when I was finished he was waiting with a towel
he dried me off and I got dressed and then he dried and brushed my hair while I laid in his lap and we talked.
something so simple and domesticated that made me feel so wonderful, so cared for.
i felt so safe at that moment, comfortable
content
happy
my hands are shaking when i type this because i wish more than anything to feel like that again, but it's not possible.
that was before lies and all the other bullshit got in the way.
before the accusations
when we were only concerned about loving one another, when WE were our everything.
and it was so peaceful, probably the most peacefl moment I have had in years
and now it's all gone.
stay at school and study dont go home and call him
not some grand moment or fantastic time....
we were hanging out at my house and I took a shower, he sat in the bathroom and talked to me while I did and when I was finished he was waiting with a towel
he dried me off and I got dressed and then he dried and brushed my hair while I laid in his lap and we talked.
something so simple and domesticated that made me feel so wonderful, so cared for.
i felt so safe at that moment, comfortable
content
happy
my hands are shaking when i type this because i wish more than anything to feel like that again, but it's not possible.
that was before lies and all the other bullshit got in the way.
before the accusations
when we were only concerned about loving one another, when WE were our everything.
and it was so peaceful, probably the most peacefl moment I have had in years
and now it's all gone.
stay at school and study dont go home and call him