May 08, 2006 14:16
Things are good things are good things are good
today I felt better but I realized how much so when sean paul came on the radio and instead of the gag reflex creeping up on me I started gyrating... awesome.
so I tested it more and listened to neyo, jamie foxx, reggaeton and then sean paul's cd 3 times in a row... jammed the whole time.
fantastic
I think it's because it's finally decided one way or another, instead of the stress of what was going to happen hanging around my neck constantly.
I mean I love him and that's not going to stop, but sometimes love just isnt enough.
and with all that's happened to us and the fact that I cant trust him and he doesn't seem to trust me: a future just does not seem possible.
I dont want to fight 5 days out of the week with anybody, so I had to let him go.
sad that it didn't work out, but I need to move on now.
so yeah, today is better and for that I'm happy.