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[steadfastrock]

and you were always right about me
you were right all along
i'm not ok

i havent been ok in a while.
i have a wonderful memory (save the times ive been ok)
i hardly remember certain things
but i dont need poetry
i dont need songs
i dont need someone to tell me how to make it out

i need to lie down on the floor
have no responsibilities
and to know you're here, you're close
and i need you to tell me its ok
its ok to hurt
i dont need to know why
i dont have to have it figured out
i dont have to know what i'm going to be doing in 10 months
its ok
its ok not to know
god i just want to cry
and i feel so bad becuase my life is so easy
and i just wish i took less for granted
and loved everything a bit more
and worried a bit less

and sometimes i wish it was ok
but right now
right now, i just wish i could hear you say i dont need to feel guilty for not being ok