All-State Auditions...
Somebody called me at 12:30 this morning... Right after I was settling in to bed... And then I was abruptly awoken at 5:30 for All-State auditions... Mom and Dad called from MN around 6 to wish me luck and check in on me. Mrs. Miller showed up to take me to school about 6:30 and we all warmed up in the choir room. We left the school around 7 for Indianola. I wasn't nervous... I should have been, but I wasn't. The other group went first, and I knew right away that they weren't going to make it. Not that they were BAD, just that they weren't REALLY REALLY GOOD... We practiced a bit outside because it was more quiet, and my skirt got blown up by the wind, which was utterly embarrassing... So when our turn finally came, we did a good warm-up and went to our audition room, where we did what I think was our best performance ever. And we went to lunch at A&W, where we saw Ryan Andy and Eric, who were taking their ACTs at Indianola, too. I talked a bit to Andy about our audition and he went off to order or something, and we went back to the school. I tried to go to sleep in the noisy gymnasium... Re-calls were posted; nobody from Carlisle got recalled. Jeremy started getting really nervous, biting his fingernails, as I tried to assure him that he made it. Another twenty minutes or so went by, and the accepted lists were posted. I turned my back; I knew I didn't make it. Then Tyler shouted after a minute that seemed to last forever: 'Jeremy made it, Jeremy made it!' I smiled, happy for my partner, and something happened that I never in a million years would have expected: I started crying. Jeremy came up and gave me a big hug, spinning me around. He told me I'm beautiful and he couldn't have done it without me, and he kissed my forehead. Everybody started to make phonecalls, and I just really wanted to leave. It seemed an eternity from that moment to the one where we were allowed to leave... I have a headache; it's been with me since re-calls were posted and everybody started screaming. I don't want to be alone. I don't want to feel rejected. Most of all, I don't want to sound shallow. I was crying only partially for my sake. I was crying mainly because I was SO happy for Jeremy... I am.