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So I'm giving up drinking all together (at least for a while). Last night I really fucked up. I have no memory of what I did, but I know it was bad as it really hurt Maya. I may have hit onto some girl, or worse. I have no clue. We were at the MCS gig and the next thing I remember was that I was at Central. I remember the details after that. But there are just giant holes in what happened, and really the specifics don't matter. What matters is that I hurt Maya - the person I care most about in the entire world, the person who I love. I'm about to go and meet up with her, so we'll see how it goes. I really don't know what to expect.
I also think we missed MCS play, or at least I can't remember watching them. I remember emery coming on though.
I've never felt so shit. Ever. Not because of the hangover but emotionally. Last night I hit so many things out of sheer frustration with myself. Now my fists are in a lot of pain.
Finally, fucking cab drivers. Just because you're drunk doesn't mean that you don't know where you live. I got into a cab and he turns off the main road (which leads directly to mine). then attempts to turn right into the city. then they dont give you change.
Update: Turns out I got my drink spiked last night. Or most likely, I picked up someone else's drink (I only had 3 drinks total that night which is barely enough to make me tipsy) and they had put GHB inside
I also think we missed MCS play, or at least I can't remember watching them. I remember emery coming on though.
I've never felt so shit. Ever. Not because of the hangover but emotionally. Last night I hit so many things out of sheer frustration with myself. Now my fists are in a lot of pain.
Finally, fucking cab drivers. Just because you're drunk doesn't mean that you don't know where you live. I got into a cab and he turns off the main road (which leads directly to mine). then attempts to turn right into the city. then they dont give you change.
Update: Turns out I got my drink spiked last night. Or most likely, I picked up someone else's drink (I only had 3 drinks total that night which is barely enough to make me tipsy) and they had put GHB inside