Fuck!
I want to fucking scream. It feels like Our "relationship" is in shambles. We never even talk anymore, I mean i am the last to pretend my life is perfect but it is pathetic that we barely even speak. If i wanted to "do who I wanted" I would. Don't you get it ? All I want is you. You are everything to me, but I just can't live in this part-time relationship. What am I supposed to do? I can't make everyone happy Mara. I am being pulled at all sides and all you are doing is using my emotional ties to you to pull harder. I love you, I told you this would be hard. Why do you think it is right to make it harder. I am not choosing Dyana over you, what is wrong with you? Can't you see I am here FOR us? Is it really that wrong for me to get a car from this? I mean you won't be bitching when I am driving you to work or when we are on road trips right? WHO CARES IF I DROVE TO THE FUCKING STORE WITHOUT MY LICENSE ? Do you really think I am that bad of a driver? Do I not drive every fucking day? This isn't fucking rocket science Mara. FUCK, I feel like shit right now, only you can make me feel this way. My lows are getting lower and lower and I don't mean to blame you, but I hate this feeling.