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well i'm quittin my job at the dollar store because i hate it. i hate the hours that i get and it's just so frustrating...this weekend went from fabulous to horrible. On friday night Amy, Jenna, and Hannah and me went to the game and then Jenna, Hannah, Steve, and me went to Dairy Queen. Despite all of the drama at the game, we had fun and it was just a cool night. We went back to Hannah's crib and had sooo much fun :) That pizza guy was mad hott ;) "i think i'm pregnant" lmfao. it was great just to talk to them and like everything be chill. I had to work today and it was going fine until Ty fucking came in. Ty just brings all of this drama that I don't want to deal with. I love him. and i seriously mean it but i can't say it to him because i don't want to be with him. I wish i could be friends with him but we both know we can't. It kills me to see him and things be not like they used to. I miss being his best friend...the person i call when i have problems and just the ultimate person. he doesnt understand that he means soo much to me. i want to get over him and i try to, but every guy i date is no comparison. ty treats me like shit and i treat him like shit but yet we still like each other? i dont know. DRAMA. i can't even like look at him without crying. :(
Anyways...Lauren and Melissa came to visit me at work today and it really helped things. :) they brightened my day and i love them both! Everything is just so complicated and I really want to move to Lexington. things have changed so much here and my family is falling apart. my family is supposed to be perfect, the one who surpasses others' expectations and stay together and loving. My parents have started fighting constantly and my mom hates her fuckin job. My world is so sucky and everything is looking down. I feel myself slipping into my old ways and idunno how i feel about that. sometimes i miss it all....the thrill of it. i don't know how i feel about anyone anymore and i seem to be pushing everyone away. i'm a fucking bitch now and i talk smack about everyone. i fucking dont care about school anymore and i treat my teachers like shit.
Anyways...Lauren and Melissa came to visit me at work today and it really helped things. :) they brightened my day and i love them both! Everything is just so complicated and I really want to move to Lexington. things have changed so much here and my family is falling apart. my family is supposed to be perfect, the one who surpasses others' expectations and stay together and loving. My parents have started fighting constantly and my mom hates her fuckin job. My world is so sucky and everything is looking down. I feel myself slipping into my old ways and idunno how i feel about that. sometimes i miss it all....the thrill of it. i don't know how i feel about anyone anymore and i seem to be pushing everyone away. i'm a fucking bitch now and i talk smack about everyone. i fucking dont care about school anymore and i treat my teachers like shit.