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anna made me really sad but now jesse and bobby and tegan and anna are on the bed with me and we're watching monty python and nothing's better than that. casey left after we were in the hot tub. i have so much on my mind but it's depressing so i'm pretending it doesnt exist because i got home(anna's) and i sat on the bathroom floor and cried and i could hear everybody saying where's cara?...im okay that im never going to find someone who'll care about me as much as i care about them and so it doesnt bother me..i was so suicidal though, i wanted to die pretty bad...
i really have the urge to paint...i'll get dropped of at home at like 2 or 3 and sleep until the play tommorow...
sarah, you picked chris over me? or is it ryan?