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ok well my internet broke last friday so i was going through major withdraw, but its back!!!!
things with daniel are really shitty, he turned into a total asshole and for no reason. friday night he came over to hang out and one thing led to another and i made ahuge mistake. ever since then hes been a totally different person and i rreally don' get it. hes completely immature and i should have realized that someone who is obsessed with pot would not make a good friend let alone a good boyfriend, but he never even let it be known to me that he liked me, never actullay said it, never said nice things to me, hes a kid, and i should have realized that. i started thinking all of this after he left on frieday. i can't change what happened between he and i, but it shouldn't ahve ahppened, and i need to talk to him and explainall of this to him. i think we're having lunch on sunday cause hes been a jerk so i havne't wanted to even talk to him at work or on the pjhone let alone hang out. the trouble is htough that i really kinda like him and i wish things hada worked out differently between us. ughhhhh!!!!
in other boy related news, i've been hanging out with this boy will from work. on monday we went to barnes and noble and talked for like an hour, then we went to see king arthur and then we went to dennys and talked more and more. hes so polite, so nice, so cute, so many things. hes 20 and lives by himself. hes very intelligent, but in more of a comical way than a brainy way. we have great conversations, last night we talked on the phone for 3 hours. tuesday he came over and we just hung out here all night and watched tv and talked. he makes me laugh so much and i ahvn'et laughed in a long time. hes very open and honest and isn't afraid to tell me things about himself or his family or his life in general. i really like that. he told me he likes me and he enjoys spending time with me and each night we've hung out and we say goodbye, he asks if he can call me the next day. he didn't kiss me the first night we hung out, i got a hug, which i thought was super amazing, like he wanted to spend time getting to know me before he added any physical stuff. and then tuesday it wasnt until he was here for like 3 and half hours when he was like "hey why don't you come over here and kiss me" haha, hes so adorable.
i really feel bad for what i'm doing to daniel, but at the same time, if he wasnt so immature and pot obsessed and rude, i wouldn't have even accepted wills invitation to han gout. it wasn't that i was looking for another option, i didnt' think anything would happen with will, i never really thought about it before. it was a friedly invitation and i accepted. ugh, i just don't know.
manja and joey are coming today i'm soooo freaking excited!!!! manja is here now and joey will be here in like 15 minutes!!!!!!!!!!!!!
things with daniel are really shitty, he turned into a total asshole and for no reason. friday night he came over to hang out and one thing led to another and i made ahuge mistake. ever since then hes been a totally different person and i rreally don' get it. hes completely immature and i should have realized that someone who is obsessed with pot would not make a good friend let alone a good boyfriend, but he never even let it be known to me that he liked me, never actullay said it, never said nice things to me, hes a kid, and i should have realized that. i started thinking all of this after he left on frieday. i can't change what happened between he and i, but it shouldn't ahve ahppened, and i need to talk to him and explainall of this to him. i think we're having lunch on sunday cause hes been a jerk so i havne't wanted to even talk to him at work or on the pjhone let alone hang out. the trouble is htough that i really kinda like him and i wish things hada worked out differently between us. ughhhhh!!!!
in other boy related news, i've been hanging out with this boy will from work. on monday we went to barnes and noble and talked for like an hour, then we went to see king arthur and then we went to dennys and talked more and more. hes so polite, so nice, so cute, so many things. hes 20 and lives by himself. hes very intelligent, but in more of a comical way than a brainy way. we have great conversations, last night we talked on the phone for 3 hours. tuesday he came over and we just hung out here all night and watched tv and talked. he makes me laugh so much and i ahvn'et laughed in a long time. hes very open and honest and isn't afraid to tell me things about himself or his family or his life in general. i really like that. he told me he likes me and he enjoys spending time with me and each night we've hung out and we say goodbye, he asks if he can call me the next day. he didn't kiss me the first night we hung out, i got a hug, which i thought was super amazing, like he wanted to spend time getting to know me before he added any physical stuff. and then tuesday it wasnt until he was here for like 3 and half hours when he was like "hey why don't you come over here and kiss me" haha, hes so adorable.
i really feel bad for what i'm doing to daniel, but at the same time, if he wasnt so immature and pot obsessed and rude, i wouldn't have even accepted wills invitation to han gout. it wasn't that i was looking for another option, i didnt' think anything would happen with will, i never really thought about it before. it was a friedly invitation and i accepted. ugh, i just don't know.
manja and joey are coming today i'm soooo freaking excited!!!! manja is here now and joey will be here in like 15 minutes!!!!!!!!!!!!!