I just like touching things.
Last night my something else inspired me to write a meaningful and inciteful entry instead of the usual boring life updating ones that no one probably cares about and just pretends to read about and to know what's going on in your life. How many people can honestly say that they read through every word of every entry on their friends page? I certainly don't, so I can't deserve any more than that.
I've decided that life scares the shit out of me and I'll be the first to admit it. I know that I'm only 18 and only a freshman in college, but I feel that I am at the age to start worrying and wondering about the future. Everyone tells you that you are supposed to meet THE ONE at college, and if not, you've already met them and just didn't realize what you had in front of you. What happens if you forever missed that window of opportunity? There is so much pressure in today's society to be with someone and to have a long term relationship or even to just have a make out buddy or something of that sort. Does it make me abnormal that I don't have any of those things? I mean I wish that I did with all of my heart but things just don't work out that way for way to many of us.
I don't think that what I've done is bad and I don't regret it at all. In that case, I miss it and wish that I had it around more often. Life throws so many curves at you. There are people in life that you will never forget, ones that you will because they were never worth it to begin with, and ones that you wish that you could forget but will never be able to because they have this hold on you and you can't figure out how to cut the strings that makes you keep going back for more.
Why can't I be more content with life? Why do so many things that occur in my life upset me? Why do I waste so many tears on occurrences and experiences that don't even deserve one? I don't know whether to be happy or sad right now. But then again do I ever? Faces are such masks to what a person is truly feeling.
I've decided that I am ready to go back to school. That way I can get away from everything here. I won't have to worry about seeing people or wanting to see people and then getting hurt in the process. I guess that in this way school is a kind of escape. You can choose who you want to talk to by a simple click of a button, whether it be on the phone or more often the computer. Ignore buttons on both are nice too. I wholeheartedly have enjoyed the hours of talks that I have had with some people and I treasure those people and the things that I am able to tell them, some more than others. I've realized that are so many levels of what you are able to tell some people. Some you can tell everything to while others you can't because they would either be mad at you, they wouldn't understand, or they just have no clue. Some people are going through what you are and those people are what make talking to them incredible.
Leaving a week from Sunday and I won't be back until the second weekend in March. Do something about that or it'll be lost forever.
I've decided that life scares the shit out of me and I'll be the first to admit it. I know that I'm only 18 and only a freshman in college, but I feel that I am at the age to start worrying and wondering about the future. Everyone tells you that you are supposed to meet THE ONE at college, and if not, you've already met them and just didn't realize what you had in front of you. What happens if you forever missed that window of opportunity? There is so much pressure in today's society to be with someone and to have a long term relationship or even to just have a make out buddy or something of that sort. Does it make me abnormal that I don't have any of those things? I mean I wish that I did with all of my heart but things just don't work out that way for way to many of us.
I don't think that what I've done is bad and I don't regret it at all. In that case, I miss it and wish that I had it around more often. Life throws so many curves at you. There are people in life that you will never forget, ones that you will because they were never worth it to begin with, and ones that you wish that you could forget but will never be able to because they have this hold on you and you can't figure out how to cut the strings that makes you keep going back for more.
Why can't I be more content with life? Why do so many things that occur in my life upset me? Why do I waste so many tears on occurrences and experiences that don't even deserve one? I don't know whether to be happy or sad right now. But then again do I ever? Faces are such masks to what a person is truly feeling.
I've decided that I am ready to go back to school. That way I can get away from everything here. I won't have to worry about seeing people or wanting to see people and then getting hurt in the process. I guess that in this way school is a kind of escape. You can choose who you want to talk to by a simple click of a button, whether it be on the phone or more often the computer. Ignore buttons on both are nice too. I wholeheartedly have enjoyed the hours of talks that I have had with some people and I treasure those people and the things that I am able to tell them, some more than others. I've realized that are so many levels of what you are able to tell some people. Some you can tell everything to while others you can't because they would either be mad at you, they wouldn't understand, or they just have no clue. Some people are going through what you are and those people are what make talking to them incredible.
Leaving a week from Sunday and I won't be back until the second weekend in March. Do something about that or it'll be lost forever.