There is something exciting about leaving everything behind
Good bye's don't hurt until you're gone, I've learned that repeatedly. The hug and the final words are always innocent and heartfelt, but if you were to say what you think the minute they left, it would be a different story altogether. I'll miss everyone while I'm away. I hope life doesn't change to rapidly and I get left behind. Maybe i'm making more of this than I really should, I guess I'll find that out when I get back.
So, today was busy. I woke up too early, went to my Nana's house, where my uncle was, I never get to see him...so that was fun. Then I went to the pool to take my lifeguard test, which was annoyingly tricky. I couldn't do the water skills stuff because of the thunder...but I'll get checked off for it anyway. Then, off to the mural I went for 3 1/2 hours. Blah. I am still unfinished. Tomorrow, I will conquer. I didn't call the lady back today. She can wait. I've already got my money. I own her! MUAHAHA! : )
I managed to squeeze in breakfast at Panera, oh yummmm, and bought a book from Connor's gift certificate, finally. Thanks buddy! It's a Steinbeck book, 'East of Eaden.' The lady at the counter told me it's one of the few books she's every read more than once. It's her favorite. I just picked it randomly off a shelf almost. I spend my money on books, other people spend it on heroine and prostitutes, and hiring people to kill their ex husbands. I just don't get it. Find a hobby, get over your pain, and move on. It's just not worth it. Easier said than done, I suppose.
I'm telling you, my new addiction, well, one of them, turns out to be a radio station. 88.1 I've got this new song always stuck in my head, called 'Another White Dash' by some girl named Butterfly. One part of the song goes:
'There is
Something exciting about leaving everything behind
There is something
Deep and pulling leaving everything behind
Something about having everthing
You think you'll ever need
Sitting in the seat next to you.'
I really like those lyrics. She has a sweet attitude in her music. It's pleasant.
Anyway, I went to the Phish show at Hoyts, which turned out to be very good. Jason and I had a good time talking and listening to one of our favorite bands together. He helped me get interested in them a looong time ago. Imagine that. It was better than seeing them live tonight for many reasons...the lack of rain in theatre, comfy seats, great camera shots, better view, etc, not hot either! I just reaped the benefits, eh? Then I hung out with a new/old friend : ) We seem to enjoy one another's company...always a pleasant time.
My goals for next year are to paint more, listen to more techno, make some of my own clothes, maybe even a bathing suit. I want to go to Vienna soon, and California, and Puerto Rico. That's the only good thing about someone leaving where you came from, or going back to where you came from...it's a place for other's to visit you. Someone asked me recently if I could be dropped of anywhere in the world, where would I go. Maybe Hawaii, or Greece, or New Zealand. I prefer to go where the wind takes me I guess, plans always change so you just have to float along with them.
I think someday I'll live at the beach. I'd always like to live in NYC and California too.
I think tonight I discovered I hallucinate. But, apparently I'm not alone. I just see crazy things when I'm driving, and then you get up close to it, and it's nothing. I have a very short, but vivid imagination. Maybe it's because I'm chronically sleep-deeprived. Is it really bad for your heart?! I'll have to think about that one. I'm pretty sure most of you have no idea what I'm talking about....ah well.
Looks like I've come to the end of my journal entry for tonight. I miss you already. Lots of love to you.
So, today was busy. I woke up too early, went to my Nana's house, where my uncle was, I never get to see him...so that was fun. Then I went to the pool to take my lifeguard test, which was annoyingly tricky. I couldn't do the water skills stuff because of the thunder...but I'll get checked off for it anyway. Then, off to the mural I went for 3 1/2 hours. Blah. I am still unfinished. Tomorrow, I will conquer. I didn't call the lady back today. She can wait. I've already got my money. I own her! MUAHAHA! : )
I managed to squeeze in breakfast at Panera, oh yummmm, and bought a book from Connor's gift certificate, finally. Thanks buddy! It's a Steinbeck book, 'East of Eaden.' The lady at the counter told me it's one of the few books she's every read more than once. It's her favorite. I just picked it randomly off a shelf almost. I spend my money on books, other people spend it on heroine and prostitutes, and hiring people to kill their ex husbands. I just don't get it. Find a hobby, get over your pain, and move on. It's just not worth it. Easier said than done, I suppose.
I'm telling you, my new addiction, well, one of them, turns out to be a radio station. 88.1 I've got this new song always stuck in my head, called 'Another White Dash' by some girl named Butterfly. One part of the song goes:
'There is
Something exciting about leaving everything behind
There is something
Deep and pulling leaving everything behind
Something about having everthing
You think you'll ever need
Sitting in the seat next to you.'
I really like those lyrics. She has a sweet attitude in her music. It's pleasant.
Anyway, I went to the Phish show at Hoyts, which turned out to be very good. Jason and I had a good time talking and listening to one of our favorite bands together. He helped me get interested in them a looong time ago. Imagine that. It was better than seeing them live tonight for many reasons...the lack of rain in theatre, comfy seats, great camera shots, better view, etc, not hot either! I just reaped the benefits, eh? Then I hung out with a new/old friend : ) We seem to enjoy one another's company...always a pleasant time.
My goals for next year are to paint more, listen to more techno, make some of my own clothes, maybe even a bathing suit. I want to go to Vienna soon, and California, and Puerto Rico. That's the only good thing about someone leaving where you came from, or going back to where you came from...it's a place for other's to visit you. Someone asked me recently if I could be dropped of anywhere in the world, where would I go. Maybe Hawaii, or Greece, or New Zealand. I prefer to go where the wind takes me I guess, plans always change so you just have to float along with them.
I think someday I'll live at the beach. I'd always like to live in NYC and California too.
I think tonight I discovered I hallucinate. But, apparently I'm not alone. I just see crazy things when I'm driving, and then you get up close to it, and it's nothing. I have a very short, but vivid imagination. Maybe it's because I'm chronically sleep-deeprived. Is it really bad for your heart?! I'll have to think about that one. I'm pretty sure most of you have no idea what I'm talking about....ah well.
Looks like I've come to the end of my journal entry for tonight. I miss you already. Lots of love to you.