tired
real tired. had some fun last night. let loose a bit. i don't get as loose as i used to though. frustrated with myself. attitudes are the hardest thing to change. i wake up each day wanting to be a certain way. in my interactions with people, my thoughts, my actions. seems i'm always back to square one. last night i smoked a few cigs. always when i drink. always when offered. i hate it. they give me mor of ahangover than the drink. keep on keepin on. should sleep good, i'm beat. g'night.