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i had a really weird dream last night. i woke up sweating and crying. it freaked the shit out of me. so now i will hopefully try to remember it and tell all of you even though i know you could care less.
so, it freaked me out so much, i remember like everything. the first part is; i was eating meat off of a dead animal's body with this guy Aaron [fanning] and Kylie. and i was like "i guess we aren't vegetarians anymore" and kylie started crying and then aaron hit her. and i said "why are you doing this!" and he said "it needs to be done".
so then i was in a cafeteria with just Kylie. and Jack Woods said "i thought you two had detention, you better go to the gym" so me and kylie walked to the gym and then sat in the middle of the gym. the teachers weren't there so we just kind of sat by ourselves for a while and talked about a lot of stuff. lots&lots of stuff, i basically told her my whole life story. it was so weird.
and then nani came up, but in my dream, nani was a teacher. so i said "nani, go tell Mr. Tasso that you want to talk to me&kylie so we can skip his period" and so Nani did, only then Nani turned into Sebbie and kylie turned into Karissa and the gym turned into my backyard on Kay Street with the swingset.
and me and karissa were sitting on the swingsets and sebbie was pushing karissa and someone was pushing me but i don't know who. i would turn around to see who was pushing me, but everytime i did, he would stop pushing. i heard his voice though, he kept saying "i love your pretty red hair, i love it, it's so beautiful, you're so beautiful" and since a boy is pushing me on the swings, telling me i'm beautiful, i really wanted to see who it was.
so i jump off the swing, and instantly i get this feeling in my stomach like, i shouldn't have done it. and then i see this guy, harry, and he was like "get the fuck back on" and i looked at karissa but she was having so much fun with sebbie she didn't even hear me scream. so all of the sudden i'm in a parking lot and these guys are pushing me in the van and laughing. but i wasn't scared, i just remember thinking "everything happens for a reason"
and so the fat guy drives and the skinny one sits shotgun in the front of the car and i'm alone in the backseat, and i said "where are we going" and they both looked at me and they said "we're going to a party" just like that damn bright eyes song.
and i say "aahhah, good one, a birthday party?" and the car stops and the fat one screams "i told you not to say that, i told you not to ever fucking say that again". and he throws me out of the car, and i happen to land right in front of my house.
and i see Leigh over on my hill so i walk over there and she's smoking a cigarette, and then she gives me one and i say "thanks" and i light it, and she's looking at this humungous tree the size of like the moon in my backyard.
and so i say "leigh, why are you looking at it" and suddenly her face gets really white and her lips get really blue and her body is so cold, and i shake her and shake her and i said LEIGH WAKE UP STOP IT IT'S NOT FUNNY STOP IT
and she looks at me and i kept screaming, screaming things at her like "if you dont stop i hate you!! i hate you stop doing this to me"
she kept looking at me
and after a long time she says
"i never really cared about you anyway."
and then kylie comes out of no where and she picks up the cigarettes
and kicks them out
and looks @ me & she says
"i know what you want, and i can give it to you".
i got really scared, so i turned around and ran towards the tree.
and "you are my sunshine" was playing in the background like this was all a flashback
everything was in slow motion
and i hear a little kid say "when i die i'm going to be a tree"
and then i'm watching myself climbing the tree
and i watch me fall from it and land in this really tall grass and i say
"trees know about the things that children need"
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and then i woke up sweating and crying.
& i was scared to death.
i don't know what i was scared of.
nothing scary happened.
it was just a really uneasy feeling.
so, it freaked me out so much, i remember like everything. the first part is; i was eating meat off of a dead animal's body with this guy Aaron [fanning] and Kylie. and i was like "i guess we aren't vegetarians anymore" and kylie started crying and then aaron hit her. and i said "why are you doing this!" and he said "it needs to be done".
so then i was in a cafeteria with just Kylie. and Jack Woods said "i thought you two had detention, you better go to the gym" so me and kylie walked to the gym and then sat in the middle of the gym. the teachers weren't there so we just kind of sat by ourselves for a while and talked about a lot of stuff. lots&lots of stuff, i basically told her my whole life story. it was so weird.
and then nani came up, but in my dream, nani was a teacher. so i said "nani, go tell Mr. Tasso that you want to talk to me&kylie so we can skip his period" and so Nani did, only then Nani turned into Sebbie and kylie turned into Karissa and the gym turned into my backyard on Kay Street with the swingset.
and me and karissa were sitting on the swingsets and sebbie was pushing karissa and someone was pushing me but i don't know who. i would turn around to see who was pushing me, but everytime i did, he would stop pushing. i heard his voice though, he kept saying "i love your pretty red hair, i love it, it's so beautiful, you're so beautiful" and since a boy is pushing me on the swings, telling me i'm beautiful, i really wanted to see who it was.
so i jump off the swing, and instantly i get this feeling in my stomach like, i shouldn't have done it. and then i see this guy, harry, and he was like "get the fuck back on" and i looked at karissa but she was having so much fun with sebbie she didn't even hear me scream. so all of the sudden i'm in a parking lot and these guys are pushing me in the van and laughing. but i wasn't scared, i just remember thinking "everything happens for a reason"
and so the fat guy drives and the skinny one sits shotgun in the front of the car and i'm alone in the backseat, and i said "where are we going" and they both looked at me and they said "we're going to a party" just like that damn bright eyes song.
and i say "aahhah, good one, a birthday party?" and the car stops and the fat one screams "i told you not to say that, i told you not to ever fucking say that again". and he throws me out of the car, and i happen to land right in front of my house.
and i see Leigh over on my hill so i walk over there and she's smoking a cigarette, and then she gives me one and i say "thanks" and i light it, and she's looking at this humungous tree the size of like the moon in my backyard.
and so i say "leigh, why are you looking at it" and suddenly her face gets really white and her lips get really blue and her body is so cold, and i shake her and shake her and i said LEIGH WAKE UP STOP IT IT'S NOT FUNNY STOP IT
and she looks at me and i kept screaming, screaming things at her like "if you dont stop i hate you!! i hate you stop doing this to me"
she kept looking at me
and after a long time she says
"i never really cared about you anyway."
and then kylie comes out of no where and she picks up the cigarettes
and kicks them out
and looks @ me & she says
"i know what you want, and i can give it to you".
i got really scared, so i turned around and ran towards the tree.
and "you are my sunshine" was playing in the background like this was all a flashback
everything was in slow motion
and i hear a little kid say "when i die i'm going to be a tree"
and then i'm watching myself climbing the tree
and i watch me fall from it and land in this really tall grass and i say
"trees know about the things that children need"
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and then i woke up sweating and crying.
& i was scared to death.
i don't know what i was scared of.
nothing scary happened.
it was just a really uneasy feeling.