let it be.

[staticntheattic]

wow. it's been since feb since i've posted in here.
alot of shit has gone on.

Started dating alex. may 25
went to the nine inches nails june 5.
it was fucking awesome.
Mehg came down.
i hope she had fun. i did. Everyone thinks that she has changed. i dont think she it's her that has changed so much as it is everyone else.
I think she agrees.
I moved in with alex.
lived there for four months. one reason why i havent been on here. no net.
got a job at papa johns.
it was fun for awhile. but we broke up sept 22.
I still have really strong feelings for him.
but i'll be okay.
I moved back out of my rents house yesterday.
I'm staying with Spyder.
ehk it's okay i guess.
He says he loves me.
it scares me.
because i dont want to hurt him but i seriously do not have feelings anymore. I'm emotionaless unless its alex.

i say that about every guy i'm with but alex is different.
Every other guy was inlove with me back. but not alex.
he only told me he loved me once and he was rolling.
we were together longer than i've ever been in another relationship.
but he used me.but i think it would of been different if we didn't live tgogether.
I wanted him to love me so bad.
but oh well.

life sucksssssssss.