So fast.
Lately my life has consisted of too much studying and too much procrastinating at the same time, finding out I may possibly get hired at Java, feeling consistently second-rate while hanging out with Melissa because she's always the pretty friend in our group, trying to help a friend make the right decision about his relationship and then giving up because ultimately its his choice and he's not going to listen to anyone else (then starting the cycle all over again), spending money I don't have, not knowing how to feel about Matt visiting this weekend, trying to care about my classes when everything else seems more important, not knowing how to feel about my dad moving to Minnesota, missing my mom and sister and cat, missing OJAI (I know, what?) and Ventura too, missing my friends at home, being awkward around the cute boys that work at Java, talking to George on the phone for hours on end on Friday nights and then feeling warm and fuzzy afterwards (that may have been the Jager talking, though), generally feeling as if I'm spinning in circles while being propelled forward yet still finding a way to get shit done.
Life isn't really good or bad right now. It kind of just is.
Life isn't really good or bad right now. It kind of just is.