Fri 03/08/07-Low Mood Lately & "Diet? What Diet?"
My mood has been generally crap this week. It could be put down to the significance of the date this week, or may simply be stuck in a depressed/miserable rut. I had an OU essay due on the 7th Aug which I absolutely don’t want to do because of how I feel. As I put it to R-- “It’s the last thing I feel like doing”. I made some enquiries on the online forum for my course and found out that all I had to do was let my tutor know that I wouldn’t be submitting the essay.
Of course I still analysed the option of substituting the essay. Even though I knew I wasn’t in the right state of mind to be able to write an essay, part of me still thought I should have got the essay done regardless. I do know though that even if I’d managed to scrape something together, it wouldn’t have been an accurate reflection of what I’m capable of. To get a score for substituted essays, the OU takes an average of all the scores for essays submitted. As my marks so far have all been between 68 and 70 pc, that’s fine.
The title of this entry really sums up what my eating has been like for the past five weeks. No diet = normal eating which means no weightloss. Currently weighing 158lbs (BMI 20.2) which is normal for the week before my period.
Some of my subscription posts on another journal site are forwarded onto my secondary email account. I've been reading them for a while, and looking at all the ‘thinspiration’ pictures that are in some of the entries. Looking at images of women with slim or thin bodies has never really been part of my weightloss motivation. Perhaps in part it's to do with whether an image appeals to me as what I'd like to look like/the image I want to present.
Of course I still analysed the option of substituting the essay. Even though I knew I wasn’t in the right state of mind to be able to write an essay, part of me still thought I should have got the essay done regardless. I do know though that even if I’d managed to scrape something together, it wouldn’t have been an accurate reflection of what I’m capable of. To get a score for substituted essays, the OU takes an average of all the scores for essays submitted. As my marks so far have all been between 68 and 70 pc, that’s fine.
The title of this entry really sums up what my eating has been like for the past five weeks. No diet = normal eating which means no weightloss. Currently weighing 158lbs (BMI 20.2) which is normal for the week before my period.
Some of my subscription posts on another journal site are forwarded onto my secondary email account. I've been reading them for a while, and looking at all the ‘thinspiration’ pictures that are in some of the entries. Looking at images of women with slim or thin bodies has never really been part of my weightloss motivation. Perhaps in part it's to do with whether an image appeals to me as what I'd like to look like/the image I want to present.