Life is Life...DUH!
Well things are just peachy in these here parts of the midwest. It's snowing, I'm starting therapy, and the possiblity of actually making somewhat decent music is coming around the corner, well atleast I hope.
To update you with what was said in the last post, I told my mom. She didn't freak out or anything, it was actually good in the end. I found out some stuff that I didn't really want to know, but I guess it's a good thing and it helps me understand my mother better now. But anyways now monday nights I'm going to go to this group therapy thing to help me heal. It's for sexual assault/rape victims. I'm not expecting anything at this point. I have a feeling I'm going to be to nice and polite when I first go though and not be able to open up. But that's what's suppose to happen right?
School is school. I want to graduate and get on with life already.
Love life = ZERO hah. Probably wont be able to have one of those until after therapy.
I quit my job at linens and things in order to go to therapy, figured I'd better work on myself before I work anywhere else, except for Dunkin Donuts I'll always work there hah.
My cousin is living with me now, i'm moving back into my parents thouse as soon as my sister and her boyfriend move out, which is in two weeks. There's so much moving in this family its ridiculous, no one knows where I live all the time hah.
Its weird how the past two days have been. It's like I was shot back into the 1950's and ate dinner at a table with family and table settings and cheesy love music in the background, but underneath it all I could feel the weird tension the awkwardness because of all the stupid little secrets and unsaid oppinions about things. I feel like everyone is crazy and then I'm the sane one, but then again I feel the comple opposite....who knows everythings a contradiction these days.
Anyways, Kurt Cobain....... I wish I could talk to him somehow...I don't know why, I just really feel some weird connection to him through his music....weird right? Oh well smells like teen spirit I guess.
Uhh I live I breath I eat.
Good enough right now.