Sep 21, 2019 13:44
Hello, my name is Ana.
I recently introduced myself in a roundabout and vague way for LJ Idol's introduction round. I haven't ever really done an introduction post because some part of me is afraid of evil strangers on the internet, despite having made most of my close friends online. I suppose, some things from our youth never really leave us.
Not really introducing myself is probably also part of my personality. I like to talk to people for a while before I really give away intimate details. That's not to say that I don't share with my casual friends or don't consider the people I talk to my friends. I just don't feel like I should put my problems on other people when we all came here to have fun. Which is an issue I have always struggled with, not asking for help when I need it. I'm working in it.
In any case, I want this to be a more direct introduction than just me inserting details of my life into my stories. Hidden so that no one would ever be able to 100% guess what parts are me and which are not.
My name is Ana. I am queer and first generation American. My family is Mexican. My mom's family is native Mexican as far back as any of them can remember. My dad's family is mixed, about 15% with either Spanish or French. Not willingly, but that's just something we all have to deal with in some way.
I don't specify either my gender or my sexuality because I am not sure whether I fully understand what my relationship with gender is, and if I don't define my gender then I can't really define my sexuality. Suffice to say, I am not exactly cis or straight. I am Catholic in the same way every Mexican is Catholic. Which was not a great time when I finally realized I wasn't straight.
I like reading books and I like writing. I never really believed anything of mine was worth reading until I joined Idol last season, so thank you all for that.
Everything in my stories is linked in some way with myself or my family, so in some ways, what I put down on paper is me. But in the end, all my stories are fiction, unless otherwise stated.
I am happy to be joining Idol for this season, and I can't wait to get to know you all.
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