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Goddamn Diaryland. What a failure.
My dad keeps saying stuff to me, and I've started to just dismiss most of it. Saying stupid shit like it's my MOTHER who's 'making this ugly' blahblah. Fucker. Who's the one who started the fun and games in the first place, hiding from the servers from a month. Now lying, now cheating. Pretending he's all honorable and whatnot....stupid bastard. He can't fool me, no matter what he says. The only problem is, he CAN fool the court. Because they have no fking idea.....
Then he goes on about how he doesn't have a job. "I hatttee looking for a job" he says. He's making it look like he can't find one. With a college degree and experience you can find SOMETHING. If you're not just shitting around. I know the job market is absolute shit right now, but come on. There are jobs out there and if you choose not to take them then you can't be bitching. McDonald's would hire you for christ sake. You could at the least work there to earn a few dollars while in your stupid search for some miracle job. And he quit his last job, even though he says that he was fired. He made up this stupid bullshit story about how he was late from some shift and fell asleep or something so they fired him for sleeping on the job. What a bloody joke. He told his friend John(another major asshole, in on such stunts like transporting my mom's stationwagon to ohio, etc) on the phone that he was quitting, and he even told me before then that he was going to quit. But he told John clearly that he had quit and why. Fkin sleeping on the job. He has to make it look like he was put out of a job though, so he can use the pity me act and pretend he can't get any money. Fucker.
And does he think I don't see through all of this?? I don't think he believes I'm that much of a fool, but I guess he's trying to change that anyway. Giving it a go anyway. Well, he's failed. And whatever he says...whatever....it means nothing...he's full of it and it doesn't matter what he says..it's just more useless crap I don't need nor want to listen to. So meh.
Today's pretty cool though, I'm just hanging out. Don't really have energy for anything else. I'm sort of used to not having sleep though now, I haven't really had any over break. And I'm fking living it up now, I don't even care. I'm going to have to go back to my tidy little schedules in a matter of days and I'm going to fkin do what I want for now. Fk my short story, fk everything. Life is good. Currently I'm just sitting here in this nice round chair just sitting, generally relaxed, and blasting music. Loud music, and stuff I haven't listened to all that much in a while. Playing the Staind Dysfunction album right now...just the right amount of screaming and angst and ahhh it's beautiful lol. And I do sort of feel angsty right now. I feel rough-edged...and I guess I kind of get like that most winters. I just feel like sitting, smoking a cigarette, and nodding my head to the pounding of the music hehe. Except no cigarettes because that would become a really bad habit. But that's what I feel like right now. That kind of shit. Something like that. And I keep swearing a lot again..and that will have to stop...guh. I always get these bouts of it and it's so hard to watch myself, and I don't even want to. I feel like saying whatever I want to say...yet, I find it to be really trashy for girls to swear all over the place so I don't really like it all that much. Hm. Well anyway.
That's all I have to say for now. Diaryland better clean up its act or I'm going to start a riot.
My dad keeps saying stuff to me, and I've started to just dismiss most of it. Saying stupid shit like it's my MOTHER who's 'making this ugly' blahblah. Fucker. Who's the one who started the fun and games in the first place, hiding from the servers from a month. Now lying, now cheating. Pretending he's all honorable and whatnot....stupid bastard. He can't fool me, no matter what he says. The only problem is, he CAN fool the court. Because they have no fking idea.....
Then he goes on about how he doesn't have a job. "I hatttee looking for a job" he says. He's making it look like he can't find one. With a college degree and experience you can find SOMETHING. If you're not just shitting around. I know the job market is absolute shit right now, but come on. There are jobs out there and if you choose not to take them then you can't be bitching. McDonald's would hire you for christ sake. You could at the least work there to earn a few dollars while in your stupid search for some miracle job. And he quit his last job, even though he says that he was fired. He made up this stupid bullshit story about how he was late from some shift and fell asleep or something so they fired him for sleeping on the job. What a bloody joke. He told his friend John(another major asshole, in on such stunts like transporting my mom's stationwagon to ohio, etc) on the phone that he was quitting, and he even told me before then that he was going to quit. But he told John clearly that he had quit and why. Fkin sleeping on the job. He has to make it look like he was put out of a job though, so he can use the pity me act and pretend he can't get any money. Fucker.
And does he think I don't see through all of this?? I don't think he believes I'm that much of a fool, but I guess he's trying to change that anyway. Giving it a go anyway. Well, he's failed. And whatever he says...whatever....it means nothing...he's full of it and it doesn't matter what he says..it's just more useless crap I don't need nor want to listen to. So meh.
Today's pretty cool though, I'm just hanging out. Don't really have energy for anything else. I'm sort of used to not having sleep though now, I haven't really had any over break. And I'm fking living it up now, I don't even care. I'm going to have to go back to my tidy little schedules in a matter of days and I'm going to fkin do what I want for now. Fk my short story, fk everything. Life is good. Currently I'm just sitting here in this nice round chair just sitting, generally relaxed, and blasting music. Loud music, and stuff I haven't listened to all that much in a while. Playing the Staind Dysfunction album right now...just the right amount of screaming and angst and ahhh it's beautiful lol. And I do sort of feel angsty right now. I feel rough-edged...and I guess I kind of get like that most winters. I just feel like sitting, smoking a cigarette, and nodding my head to the pounding of the music hehe. Except no cigarettes because that would become a really bad habit. But that's what I feel like right now. That kind of shit. Something like that. And I keep swearing a lot again..and that will have to stop...guh. I always get these bouts of it and it's so hard to watch myself, and I don't even want to. I feel like saying whatever I want to say...yet, I find it to be really trashy for girls to swear all over the place so I don't really like it all that much. Hm. Well anyway.
That's all I have to say for now. Diaryland better clean up its act or I'm going to start a riot.