this whole world makes me sick
i wake up at night with a burning in my throat
and i wake up with these horrible thoughts
when im awake, im not entirely sure why
and its often hard for me to calm back down enough to be at rest
i have a burning in my stomach
and i think about the burdon of leadership
i think about the burdon of inteligence
of love
of humanity
of life
i think about our world
and i get sick
and i get angry
i think about the children whos lives are ruined before theyre are teenagers
i think about the pain that we inflict on one another because we are right
im utterly restless
and im entirely alone, save my thoughts
so i pace
trying to clear my head of these visions
these awful realizations about the world
the world we all live in
my world
my little ten by tweleve room
my faith
my purpose
i end up in front of a mirror
and im looking at myself
wondering why i am awake
then i realize i wasnt asleep
my mind was wondering
and i see my fathers face in the mirror
and im angry now
but, im not angry with him
or angry at myself
im angry at the world
the world is full of people who believe they are the only ones that matter
they are the only souls privledged with the knowledge that they are right
some, self ratified conquest and holy purpose
that only they were privy to
i have this rising fire in my stomach
something that often forces me to be awake
and to be thinking
something id rather not have to do, while the rest of my world sleeps soundly
and i think of all those children
the medicated, treated, misunderstood
and burdoned
being so young and having the world on your shoulders
dont let anyone tell you otherwise
inteligence, is a burdon
ignorance is, in fact, bliss
people can, so easily convince themselves of anything, if theyre greater demons want them to be convinced
we can turn blind eyes
we can ignore the things that disgust us
we will look away at crime
at almost anything we would not approve for our own lives
simply because it does not affect us
i am no radical
i do not believe in unjust killing
i would not wish harm on anyone on this world
but there are times when i believe we would all be better off, not being
we are fortunate to be withins gods grace
and we spit in his precense and ignore his gifts
my skin crawls
my stomach burns
and ive been up longer then i care to remember
and i wake up with these horrible thoughts
when im awake, im not entirely sure why
and its often hard for me to calm back down enough to be at rest
i have a burning in my stomach
and i think about the burdon of leadership
i think about the burdon of inteligence
of love
of humanity
of life
i think about our world
and i get sick
and i get angry
i think about the children whos lives are ruined before theyre are teenagers
i think about the pain that we inflict on one another because we are right
im utterly restless
and im entirely alone, save my thoughts
so i pace
trying to clear my head of these visions
these awful realizations about the world
the world we all live in
my world
my little ten by tweleve room
my faith
my purpose
i end up in front of a mirror
and im looking at myself
wondering why i am awake
then i realize i wasnt asleep
my mind was wondering
and i see my fathers face in the mirror
and im angry now
but, im not angry with him
or angry at myself
im angry at the world
the world is full of people who believe they are the only ones that matter
they are the only souls privledged with the knowledge that they are right
some, self ratified conquest and holy purpose
that only they were privy to
i have this rising fire in my stomach
something that often forces me to be awake
and to be thinking
something id rather not have to do, while the rest of my world sleeps soundly
and i think of all those children
the medicated, treated, misunderstood
and burdoned
being so young and having the world on your shoulders
dont let anyone tell you otherwise
inteligence, is a burdon
ignorance is, in fact, bliss
people can, so easily convince themselves of anything, if theyre greater demons want them to be convinced
we can turn blind eyes
we can ignore the things that disgust us
we will look away at crime
at almost anything we would not approve for our own lives
simply because it does not affect us
i am no radical
i do not believe in unjust killing
i would not wish harm on anyone on this world
but there are times when i believe we would all be better off, not being
we are fortunate to be withins gods grace
and we spit in his precense and ignore his gifts
my skin crawls
my stomach burns
and ive been up longer then i care to remember