Sorry I'm not home right now, I'm walking into spiderwebs
I don't care what anyone thinks, Gwen is hot.
Oh man. So much going on.
Thank god this is my last week of class. I just want to get through it. My grades are awful and I find myself really not caring. My portfolio site is mediocre and I really don't mind right now. My illustration is less than stellar and I could care less. I feel like going to school for 3 years straight is just killing me, and I seriously just need a break. Which is exactly what I'm doing. Granted, it's against my own will, because I didn't get the money I needed to continue school, but I see it as a blessing in disguise. Maybe it'll give me time to wrap my head around graduating soon and maybe it'll help motivate me to make an awesome portfolio next quarter. That's what I'm hoping anyway. I've come to terms that I'll be graduating way after everyone else. It sucks, but it happens. Things happen. I really think this is just for the best. I'll be able to get a second job and save up some money, I'll be able to hopefully start early on preparing my portfolio and even though I'll be really busy with another job I'll be able to have some sort of enjoyable summer. I find that part of the problem is that I'm always ALWAYS thinking about school work, always freting about it, and it wears me out. This will allow me to not worry about it for once. That'll be nice.
I know my grades won't be good. That sucks, but I think the reason they declined is because I never got a break, and working and everything all at once just keeps me from wanting to do anything school related. Excuses, I know, but that is exactly the problem. I've come to terms with it. Of all things though, I do know that I want to do graphic design as my career. I've always had problems coming to terms with it but I see that this is something that I will love to do.. it's just taking me a little longer to grow into it, but honestly, I don't see myself doing anything else and I'm ok with that.
In other news, I saw No Doubt and they were quite awesome. They put on a suprisingly good show. In one of the songs they showed home movies of them from 1992. It was pretty crazy to see them back then and how much fun they had, and how much fun they have even now. 15 years from now I want to still have that kind of fun with my friends.. I want to always have a strong relationship with my friends.. I don't want to be like my parents who honestly don't have any friends. I always grew up wondering how grownups and parents can have friends, because mine never did. But if your relationship is strong enough, having kids and a family should never prevent having a strong relationship with friends, because theres no reason they can't share those moments with you. Just a little something I've been thinking about.
I want to go on some sort of vacation. I shouldn't complain though, I do get to go to Ohio in august for that David Cook show and that'll be fun, but a beach would be nice.