(no subject)
I think I'm slowly getting back on my feet. I don't know what my problem has been the past few days (weeks? months?), and I don't even know how to describe what the problem was. I just don't feel right.
But, I'm working on it. I'm freeing up my schedule a bit by dropping my friday morning class. I will probably regret this decision once next fall quarter rolls around, but I think it's a better call in the long run. Yeah I'll be going 1 extra quarter, which I will so hate myself for, but this year won't be crazy and stressful like the past few weeks have been. The funny thing is, I don't really have THAT much going on.. I just emotionally feel bogged down and stressed. So relieveing some shit may hopefully help a little. I probably don't make any sense.
At this point, I really don't know where my life is heading. I have no idea what kind of job I'm going to have at the end of all this, I don't even know what I WANT to do. Except that I know all I wanna do is live comfortably, because all this money and school and struggling shit is killing me. I don't want to deal with it anymore. Last year, I had a plan, and I look back at that plan, and see just how different it's changed. At the very least, then, I had an idea as to where I was heading. Now, who the fuck knows.
And to be honest, I kind of perfer that plan as opposed to how things actually turned out...
Yeah.
Things happen though. Things change. It's just something I need to get over and realize.
Jen Boord is getting married this weekend, and I'm so happy for her and Alex.
I had the biggest crush on her in the 8th/9th grade.
Also, Jamie and Nick are getting married this weekend as well. It's so crazy thinking about people our age getting married.. it's kind of exciting.
I'm happy for them.
Things play out differently for everyone, and nothing usually works out the way you originally thought.
But, I'm working on it. I'm freeing up my schedule a bit by dropping my friday morning class. I will probably regret this decision once next fall quarter rolls around, but I think it's a better call in the long run. Yeah I'll be going 1 extra quarter, which I will so hate myself for, but this year won't be crazy and stressful like the past few weeks have been. The funny thing is, I don't really have THAT much going on.. I just emotionally feel bogged down and stressed. So relieveing some shit may hopefully help a little. I probably don't make any sense.
At this point, I really don't know where my life is heading. I have no idea what kind of job I'm going to have at the end of all this, I don't even know what I WANT to do. Except that I know all I wanna do is live comfortably, because all this money and school and struggling shit is killing me. I don't want to deal with it anymore. Last year, I had a plan, and I look back at that plan, and see just how different it's changed. At the very least, then, I had an idea as to where I was heading. Now, who the fuck knows.
And to be honest, I kind of perfer that plan as opposed to how things actually turned out...
Yeah.
Things happen though. Things change. It's just something I need to get over and realize.
Jen Boord is getting married this weekend, and I'm so happy for her and Alex.
I had the biggest crush on her in the 8th/9th grade.
Also, Jamie and Nick are getting married this weekend as well. It's so crazy thinking about people our age getting married.. it's kind of exciting.
I'm happy for them.
Things play out differently for everyone, and nothing usually works out the way you originally thought.