Kick it Up
I don't know what to think about anything anymore. Why do people have to come into my fucking life and make it so much more complicated. I'm starting to hate close to everything and everyone except for Cassandra, and Todd. I'm even getting sick of Kate a bit. The things and choices she does and decides to do anyway....I love her, she's my best friend, but lately, I've become a little more distant from her.
The time I spent with Eric, I could say was a waste of my precious fucking time, but I'm not bitter anymore. Especially not in that way. He walked into my life so unsuspectedly. I never knew what I was in for, but now I do. How can someone be so selfish, arrogant and in denial? Then again...aren't we all? He really does deserve to be alone, because this is what he wants, and I guess this is what he needs. I only want him to be happy, and if this is what is gonna make him happy, then I'll let it be.
Todd is such a sweetheart. I'm really glad he asked me out..again. I miss him. I haven't seen him for days. ): But that's okay...I get to see him tonight. YAY! He's so considerate, and he's such a funny guy. He treats me so much better than any other. I was talking to him for hours last night til like 2am in the morning, and he kept making me smile. <3
Well, yesterday on MSN, I was talking to Mike and he said something very rude to me. He's never done that before...And I know now, that the reason our friendship broke into pieces was because of Drugs. How can I be so fucking stupid. I screwed it up...and now Mike and I are totally not into each other anymore. I miss him so much..........I really wish that he would forget about all those times I ditched him for drugs and everything...then again, that's something I shouldn't be forgiven for. I hate it when he's right, because when he's right, he always makes me realize something....hardcore.
Anyway, these two weeks before school starts, is gonna be so hectic for me. This Saturday, I'll be hanging out with Mike (which I'm excited for), Monday I'll have Youth Intervention with my counsellor and SWEET, it's my LAST session! NO MORE DRUGS FOR CARMEN! For once I'm proud of myself...hmm, and then Tuesday, I have a meeting with London Secondary. I hope that goes on good. I hate the school, but I really need to be in one for September. On Wednesday I have breakfast with Heidi (My Roving Leader) and then we'll be hitting the courts for a game of.......oh yeah..TEATHER BALL! (Bwahahah I'm so cool) Oh yeah...and I forgot...Tuesday afternoon I'll have this job interview thing at Thompson Community Centre to go to and I get free food. YAY!
Well, it's time I took a shower..because I have to pick up Cassandra.
Later days!
The time I spent with Eric, I could say was a waste of my precious fucking time, but I'm not bitter anymore. Especially not in that way. He walked into my life so unsuspectedly. I never knew what I was in for, but now I do. How can someone be so selfish, arrogant and in denial? Then again...aren't we all? He really does deserve to be alone, because this is what he wants, and I guess this is what he needs. I only want him to be happy, and if this is what is gonna make him happy, then I'll let it be.
Todd is such a sweetheart. I'm really glad he asked me out..again. I miss him. I haven't seen him for days. ): But that's okay...I get to see him tonight. YAY! He's so considerate, and he's such a funny guy. He treats me so much better than any other. I was talking to him for hours last night til like 2am in the morning, and he kept making me smile. <3
Well, yesterday on MSN, I was talking to Mike and he said something very rude to me. He's never done that before...And I know now, that the reason our friendship broke into pieces was because of Drugs. How can I be so fucking stupid. I screwed it up...and now Mike and I are totally not into each other anymore. I miss him so much..........I really wish that he would forget about all those times I ditched him for drugs and everything...then again, that's something I shouldn't be forgiven for. I hate it when he's right, because when he's right, he always makes me realize something....hardcore.
Anyway, these two weeks before school starts, is gonna be so hectic for me. This Saturday, I'll be hanging out with Mike (which I'm excited for), Monday I'll have Youth Intervention with my counsellor and SWEET, it's my LAST session! NO MORE DRUGS FOR CARMEN! For once I'm proud of myself...hmm, and then Tuesday, I have a meeting with London Secondary. I hope that goes on good. I hate the school, but I really need to be in one for September. On Wednesday I have breakfast with Heidi (My Roving Leader) and then we'll be hitting the courts for a game of.......oh yeah..TEATHER BALL! (Bwahahah I'm so cool) Oh yeah...and I forgot...Tuesday afternoon I'll have this job interview thing at Thompson Community Centre to go to and I get free food. YAY!
Well, it's time I took a shower..because I have to pick up Cassandra.
Later days!