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in the library-- i haven't updated in awhile, and i do have a lot to say, but its all very mixed up and varied, and would come out completely incoherent if i tried to organize my thoughts right now. a lot has happened since my last post, but not much that is very significant i think. well, at least not significant to anyone but myself. every little mental note i've made recently "that is worth mentioning" could be developed into a full post in my own special hyperanalyzing way that i have, and some things that i have to say shouldn't be left to a one-liner or footnote here in this blog. but where do i get the time to say everything that i want to say? and now that i've gone and written this extensive introduction, its very hard to start writing about something other than writing. well it'll have to be an abrupt switch:
this time of year is very bittersweet for me, on a completely physical level. i LOVE the weather, the light jacket, marvel, want to walk my dog forever weather. it always seems to provoke memories of when i was little and worried about what kind of braid i would put in my hair, and developed very-complex schemes to avoid taking a bath (yes i was a dirty little child, or at least i tried to be one). i dont know why. there is no real connection to me being 6 years old and the beginning of spring-- but its there all the same, and its very nice. i love when the sky is that perfect blue, not too bright, and there are swirls of clouds that don't move, and the sun is in just the right spot that it cast the right light and the right shadow. when the sky looks like a michelangelo. and at the same time-- this time of year is hell for me. changes of seasons means sinus headaches and stuffy noses, post-nasal drip and dry skin. when my allergies are worst-- such as right now, is like living in a nightmare. essentially i feel like crap ALL THE TIME. I'll just have to compensate with lots of ice cream. so nice to take my little walk to marvel every day after school with some assortment of people. sometimes kat and sam, yesterday emily came too. this has to been done at least once a week for reasons of maintaining my sanity-- and i highly recommend it.
i have a lot more to say about everything. and i dont even feel i adaquetly expressed my feelings about the weather, but this is not the time nor the place. just one more note: i went to see my not-even-a-day-old cousin yesterday, and he is beautiful and perfect and wonderful. he made me very happy.
this time of year is very bittersweet for me, on a completely physical level. i LOVE the weather, the light jacket, marvel, want to walk my dog forever weather. it always seems to provoke memories of when i was little and worried about what kind of braid i would put in my hair, and developed very-complex schemes to avoid taking a bath (yes i was a dirty little child, or at least i tried to be one). i dont know why. there is no real connection to me being 6 years old and the beginning of spring-- but its there all the same, and its very nice. i love when the sky is that perfect blue, not too bright, and there are swirls of clouds that don't move, and the sun is in just the right spot that it cast the right light and the right shadow. when the sky looks like a michelangelo. and at the same time-- this time of year is hell for me. changes of seasons means sinus headaches and stuffy noses, post-nasal drip and dry skin. when my allergies are worst-- such as right now, is like living in a nightmare. essentially i feel like crap ALL THE TIME. I'll just have to compensate with lots of ice cream. so nice to take my little walk to marvel every day after school with some assortment of people. sometimes kat and sam, yesterday emily came too. this has to been done at least once a week for reasons of maintaining my sanity-- and i highly recommend it.
i have a lot more to say about everything. and i dont even feel i adaquetly expressed my feelings about the weather, but this is not the time nor the place. just one more note: i went to see my not-even-a-day-old cousin yesterday, and he is beautiful and perfect and wonderful. he made me very happy.