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today was a pretty shitty day. i feel like i've ruined my life. i feel so irresponsible. will was so nice and supportive about everything but i know he's scared too. this just sucks really bad. the part that sucks so much more is the fact that i have no best friend to talk to about this. i have no one but him that i can tell and not be judged. i don't even think anyone will read this but i'm too scared to even say it on here. i just don't understand why so many shitty things happen to me. everytime i get a little happy, 10 things have to come out of no where and completely ruin everything.
slightly better news: i looked at a scion tC yesterday. omg its such an amazing car. i was seriously ready to just give them my car and drive off with it but instead i told my dad and he wrote me a long email telling me that i should hold off but if i really want it he would help me. of course will sided with him and i'm not getting the car. sad but the more i thought about it, the more i realized that i'm not in love with it and i'd rather wait a while and find one i really love. hopefully towards the end of the year i can save up enough to make a good down payment and get a 2008 scion cuz i like those better than the 2007s annnnd i'd rather pay $15000 on a car that doesn't have 30000 miles on it. so i made the right choice in the end. just sad cuz i'm still stuck with the cougar.
slightly better news: i looked at a scion tC yesterday. omg its such an amazing car. i was seriously ready to just give them my car and drive off with it but instead i told my dad and he wrote me a long email telling me that i should hold off but if i really want it he would help me. of course will sided with him and i'm not getting the car. sad but the more i thought about it, the more i realized that i'm not in love with it and i'd rather wait a while and find one i really love. hopefully towards the end of the year i can save up enough to make a good down payment and get a 2008 scion cuz i like those better than the 2007s annnnd i'd rather pay $15000 on a car that doesn't have 30000 miles on it. so i made the right choice in the end. just sad cuz i'm still stuck with the cougar.