long time coming
So I dont know why i have felt so disconnected... but it is to the point where writing in my journal is a daunting task. Life is changing alot and it is nothing to complain about. I am adjusting to being a normal working adult who has very little time to get things done because the 9-6pm schedule is a little overwhelming. I like what I do and I like the people that I work with... but work just gives me money to pay bills... it is not like i am doing anything enjoyable or reaping in the rewards.
On top of everything, i want to be free of the feeling that I am imposing on someone else. Living with Judy has been great, and I am completely spoiled. I just dont feel like I deserve it... and I dont want to overstay my welcome. I constantly worry about how long I have been here compared to my initial plans at the start of the summer. I guess it is something i need to discuss with her personally... but it is a difficult conversation to get started.
I want to move out but it is expensive...and with a car payment, insurance, etc... there is not enough for me to afford living on my own. Plus I have a dog... which limits the housing that I can find.
It is amazing that I have so much to complain about when life is going well. I guess I am just not doing a lot to entertain myself.... which leads me to stress out about the small stuff. I kinda miss life with less responsibility.
On top of everything, i want to be free of the feeling that I am imposing on someone else. Living with Judy has been great, and I am completely spoiled. I just dont feel like I deserve it... and I dont want to overstay my welcome. I constantly worry about how long I have been here compared to my initial plans at the start of the summer. I guess it is something i need to discuss with her personally... but it is a difficult conversation to get started.
I want to move out but it is expensive...and with a car payment, insurance, etc... there is not enough for me to afford living on my own. Plus I have a dog... which limits the housing that I can find.
It is amazing that I have so much to complain about when life is going well. I guess I am just not doing a lot to entertain myself.... which leads me to stress out about the small stuff. I kinda miss life with less responsibility.