I'm such a girl
I'm so pissed right now, but at the same time I don't feel like I have the right to be pissed at him. I haven't told him how much I've missed him. I haven't told him how much I thought about him over the summer and how it killed me being so close before school ended and then hardly getting to say a word to him for a whole 3 months. Why do I suddenly feel like such a girl. I expected so much more out of this night and it just sucks. I can't believe I've been waiting for this day for so long and it turned out to be such a dissappiontment.
I can't say that it was a COMPLETE dissappointment because at least I had my girls to hang out with. And yesterday was a lot of fun. Actually the last 2 days were pretty fun hanging out with Alex. TDX was loads of fun last night and I just wish tonight could have been just as good. I just want to be wanted again.
It's been nice having some one-on-one talks with Maria again. It's been helping me get some stuff off my mind. I like having someone that I can feel completely candid with and won't have a huge biased opinion. Other then the fact that boys suck and are big jerkfaces. Haha, oh and good news! Maria is sorta taking a break from Grant. Thank God! I can not stand that kid to save my life. Hopefully I won't have to deal with him too much this year. Or at all cause that would be great.
Why did I choose tonight to be all girly. I've always tried shunning away from all the stupid bull crap girls pull. But suddenly it's all I've been thinking about.
I can't say that it was a COMPLETE dissappointment because at least I had my girls to hang out with. And yesterday was a lot of fun. Actually the last 2 days were pretty fun hanging out with Alex. TDX was loads of fun last night and I just wish tonight could have been just as good. I just want to be wanted again.
It's been nice having some one-on-one talks with Maria again. It's been helping me get some stuff off my mind. I like having someone that I can feel completely candid with and won't have a huge biased opinion. Other then the fact that boys suck and are big jerkfaces. Haha, oh and good news! Maria is sorta taking a break from Grant. Thank God! I can not stand that kid to save my life. Hopefully I won't have to deal with him too much this year. Or at all cause that would be great.
Why did I choose tonight to be all girly. I've always tried shunning away from all the stupid bull crap girls pull. But suddenly it's all I've been thinking about.