life is so chill...
i finished my picture. i cleaned my room (pretty much) and lauren and i went to the mall today, and found pursesssss. and i'm going to get mine, and a wallet, for less than the purse would have cost in the first place. mmhmm.
i've realized that lauren is such an amazing influence on me. she doesn't drink, doesn't do drugs, and i don't think i want to anymore. even though right now i would die for a cig. but not really...
i'm so excited for SOAR. yeah. really excited. and then i get to meet marielllll. and my sister is coming to town from ohio. and then it's beach week. and i'm going to sit outside tomorrow and read and tan.mmmmmmm. A Million Little Pieces is an amazing book. i love it.
a week from today i will have been sober for 2 months. i'm proud of myself. but there's still a part of me that wants to not be... but the other part of me knows i can do better, and i deserve better then to do that to myself. is this a sign of growing up?