"you only get what you give"
i don't feel like capitalizing anything tonight, so i won't. blah. the past few days have been... well, i guess you could say a rollercoaster. graduation was awesome. we officially never have to go to northwest ever again. it's amazing. afterwards amy and i went to chill at josh's for his party, steph and phil were very immature and rude and left after being there for 5 seconds because amy and i were there and apparently steph doesn't like me anymore? or never did? whatever. i'm tired of apologizing for things i haven't done and for toher people's immaturity and lack of being able to accept when they're wrong or the world not focusing on them... am i wrong there? then josh and i chilled with amy at her house, i went out to dinner with the family, and then went to the gradutaion thing at the y. much fun, but i got very tired towards the end. so, then i took brian home, got home about 5ish, and then went to sleeeeeep. slept till 1pm (most amazing) then took a shower, went to ashley's grad party which was lots of fun. i was suprised to see steph and phil stayed for more then 5 seconds today. then i went to the mall with lauren, who made me feel better about things, and we shopped and talked. i love hanging out with lauren. she doesn't bring me down and almost hit me when i told her i had low self-esteem today. haha. work tonight was amazing. it really confirmed why i love being there so much. i have such an amazing support system there, with my managers and co-workers... and even some of my friends who are friends just cause they come up there so often and i see them so often. they made me feel so much better about everything. [insert big sigh of relief here] so i was thinking of stuff i could do that would make me feel better, and i was discussing them with alex... and yeah. we decided most of it was too immature and i'm not going to sink to steph's level of immaturity. it's way too middle school.
i'm so ready for this summer. i want charleston. i want cincinnatti. i was ORIENTTION at uncg. i want the cruiseeeee. i really want the cruise. that's going to be amazing. i'm ready to get a tan. i'm ready to be 18. i'm ready to get my tattoo and go out dancing. ah. i'm so ready to embrce everything that is going to finally be different.