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Why is it that something always has to go wrong? Why can't things just keep going good rather than something happening and making everything go back to exactly how it was that made me want to change.. Why can't I catch a break. Why can't I seem to break a trend.. Is it that I'm just meant to be nothing but a miserable junkie? Because that's really how it feels. Atleast when I'm using I don't have to feel so sad, so worthless, so full of unanswerable questions. Atleast there's something that I know will always be there for me if I need it and that no matter what happens that its always waiting and willing to let me fall.. God I wanted so badly for this to be my time. Maybe some people just never get one.. I should know by now that when something is going good that its soon to be really bad. And it just seems like the bad gets worse.. I have no one to talk to. No one to turn to. No one to ask for help.. I don't even know what kind of help I need. A straight jacket and a little ahite room perhaps.. Or perhaps. I don't even know.. Fuck. I can't even cry I can't even sleep. I really wonder who this life was made for because really nobody deserves this.