don't read this..
you know. the past idk. 2 and half years. yeah. they've been hard. i'll never fully get over it. but they say you never forget your first love, so i'm hoping that eventually it stops hurting.
i was never the perfect girlfriend, and i know that. but.. really if you put up with me for 3 years it couldn't have been that bad.
i'll never be the perfect person, i'll never grow out of my addictions. i'll always be needy. i'll always be selfish. i'll always need somebody there for me.
i tried to be your friend. it for a little while. it was good. until i constantly get her thrown in my face. as much as you think that i 'hate' her, i'm merely a female. and she took what was mine. i'm allowed to have ill feelings towards her. doesn't mean that i hate her.
she was your goddess and i was your fuck up.
i don't know how else to put it.
but i can't continue to be friends with you because it hurts me too much. i constantly worry about you, and that will never change. i'll always care about you, and, unfortunately i don't think i'll ever stop loving you.
all these reasons combined along with us not being able to have a normal conversation because either you're drunk or one of us is having a bad day... the reasons our relationship failed (as much as you want to put all the blame on me), are the same reasons our friendship can't continue.
"too much hurt one person caused. yet. letting that one person go. hurts the most."
i am sorry that she left without telling you goodbye, i know you're upset. i knew something was bothering you yesterday that's why i got off of work, and called you... and i really hate it that i sense when you're hurting. because it hurts me too.
we don't work. plain and simple. we both know this. you don't care about me like i care about you. we both know this.
this will be easier for you than it will be for me.
you say you "need a friend".. you know how to get in contact with me if you need anything......
i was never the perfect girlfriend, and i know that. but.. really if you put up with me for 3 years it couldn't have been that bad.
i'll never be the perfect person, i'll never grow out of my addictions. i'll always be needy. i'll always be selfish. i'll always need somebody there for me.
i tried to be your friend. it for a little while. it was good. until i constantly get her thrown in my face. as much as you think that i 'hate' her, i'm merely a female. and she took what was mine. i'm allowed to have ill feelings towards her. doesn't mean that i hate her.
she was your goddess and i was your fuck up.
i don't know how else to put it.
but i can't continue to be friends with you because it hurts me too much. i constantly worry about you, and that will never change. i'll always care about you, and, unfortunately i don't think i'll ever stop loving you.
all these reasons combined along with us not being able to have a normal conversation because either you're drunk or one of us is having a bad day... the reasons our relationship failed (as much as you want to put all the blame on me), are the same reasons our friendship can't continue.
"too much hurt one person caused. yet. letting that one person go. hurts the most."
i am sorry that she left without telling you goodbye, i know you're upset. i knew something was bothering you yesterday that's why i got off of work, and called you... and i really hate it that i sense when you're hurting. because it hurts me too.
we don't work. plain and simple. we both know this. you don't care about me like i care about you. we both know this.
this will be easier for you than it will be for me.
you say you "need a friend".. you know how to get in contact with me if you need anything......