I Hate Everything
Sorry for the rant, it's been a rough weekend. I'm sure I'll be over it by tomorrow.
I don't really hate eveything. I love my roommates because they make me happy. I love my family because, even when they bring me down, they're always there to help me when I need it most. I love my friends. But other than people, I'm pretty much sick of life right now. I don't even want to go skiing! I feel like I'm screwing myself school-wise and I don't care. I don't want to go to class or do homework. I don't want to start studying for the stupid LSAT. I know this is a bad attitude, but right now, I can't seem to muster up enough enery to care. I've become pretty apathetic. Also, I'm sick of the whole idea of dating. I don't want to hear that I let all the good guys go. That everyone else can have a boyfriend but me, which, by the way, isn't true. And I don't want to hear that I must be doing something wrong because I shouldn't have to chase boys, they should be chasing me. (For anyone confused, that is all directed at my mom.) I just wish I could forget about the fact that I'm in my 20's and should be interested in dating, but I can't becuase I keep getting not so subtle reminders. I just want to be happy. I'm also sick of money. I don't have any because I don't know how to save it and I like to spend it and I'm not currently making any. I don't need lectures, the $0 balance in my checking account is enough to remind me that I'm an ass and screwed up big time. But still, I had fun blowing all my money, which is kind of important, right? And, I'm sick of sucking at skiing. I've had about my worst season ever, and even if it is only a club sport, that's still a little rough on the ego. Especially when I only have one season after this. As long as it's still fun.
On a brighter note, I did a 63 second keg stand Friday, which is the record this year for the MSU/WMU ski team. At least I'm good at SOMETHING. Haha. Also, next weekend is Leah's birthday which I'm excited for. It also means I get to spend a weekend with my roommates who I really really missed this weekend.
I don't really hate eveything. I love my roommates because they make me happy. I love my family because, even when they bring me down, they're always there to help me when I need it most. I love my friends. But other than people, I'm pretty much sick of life right now. I don't even want to go skiing! I feel like I'm screwing myself school-wise and I don't care. I don't want to go to class or do homework. I don't want to start studying for the stupid LSAT. I know this is a bad attitude, but right now, I can't seem to muster up enough enery to care. I've become pretty apathetic. Also, I'm sick of the whole idea of dating. I don't want to hear that I let all the good guys go. That everyone else can have a boyfriend but me, which, by the way, isn't true. And I don't want to hear that I must be doing something wrong because I shouldn't have to chase boys, they should be chasing me. (For anyone confused, that is all directed at my mom.) I just wish I could forget about the fact that I'm in my 20's and should be interested in dating, but I can't becuase I keep getting not so subtle reminders. I just want to be happy. I'm also sick of money. I don't have any because I don't know how to save it and I like to spend it and I'm not currently making any. I don't need lectures, the $0 balance in my checking account is enough to remind me that I'm an ass and screwed up big time. But still, I had fun blowing all my money, which is kind of important, right? And, I'm sick of sucking at skiing. I've had about my worst season ever, and even if it is only a club sport, that's still a little rough on the ego. Especially when I only have one season after this. As long as it's still fun.
On a brighter note, I did a 63 second keg stand Friday, which is the record this year for the MSU/WMU ski team. At least I'm good at SOMETHING. Haha. Also, next weekend is Leah's birthday which I'm excited for. It also means I get to spend a weekend with my roommates who I really really missed this weekend.