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I dont know what the word i'm looking for to describe how i am when it comes to guys…pessimistic perhaps, in the way i think things wont go well or that they will turn out bad or that i will wish i never got involved.
I think this way b/c i have done so my whole life and it has kept me out of major heartbreak thus far, but so many people say that love is about chance. But i dont know if i'm ready to take that chance and i dont really have time for it, at least once school starts again.
I am good about trusting my gut feelings. The stuff I have gone by, said no about, and walked away from have turned out being the right decision, often I would just see why later. People would argue with me saying it was just being me afraid of relationships, which in an extent, could be true. But then afterwards I have had the same people come up to me and say “yeah, I see it now that you guys would have never worked even though I thought you were crazy before b/c it seemed perfect.”
So then I think, yeah, I’m good to be this way. But then what about when I actually start to like a person? What do I do then?
Who knows…I’m not malicious about how I view guys, but especially after being in college, it has reinforced the belief how so many guys are so good at saying the right thing, making you feel special, make themselves seem like they are a great guy but they are PRETENDING, or just not supper genuine, just saying or doing stuff they know works.
Now is that how its supposed to be? I’ve heard love is a game. But I think it should be sincere if that’s the case.
Sometimes I feel like a jerk b/c I just don’t buy the nice compliments a guy will give me. I think of it as just a “line” or what not.
But I say nice things to my friends or whoever all the time that could be considered a “line” that isn’t very sincere. But I really don’t give compliments unless I really believe them as true.
So couldn’t other people be the same way? Sure they can, but when it comes to a guy who is interested in me that says them, I think of it as a totally different story, Which is probably not so nice of me, but that’s just my reaction. I don’t do it purposely.
Call it cynical or what you want, but I’m just a very suspicious person when it comes to that sort of thing
I’m so afraid of falling for someone who seems great but is really just putting on a façade.
I can always tell fake from fraud when it comes to my friends, so far I have yet to be wrong about my instincts on the guy or a girl that my friends date, but when it comes to someone your interested, your vision gets cloudy. That’s just what happens.
I’m usually too suspicious about everything to get to that point of being clouded, but if I do, I don’t have anyone to really tell me what they think b/c most of my friends just want me to finally date.
I don’t even know where I’m going with this. Basically I just need to learn how to trust guys a little bit more. I trust my guy friends, and I mostly have guy friends. But I trust them b/c they are just staying friends. There is no perusal of anything further. But I don’t want to trust the wrong guy and get hurt, or be one of those stupid girls who fall for the wrong guy.
Ok, I don’t know what I’m thinking. I still don’t even know what I’m trying to get across…I had an idea in the beginning but lost it along the way.
Whatever. I’m a lost cause
I think this way b/c i have done so my whole life and it has kept me out of major heartbreak thus far, but so many people say that love is about chance. But i dont know if i'm ready to take that chance and i dont really have time for it, at least once school starts again.
I am good about trusting my gut feelings. The stuff I have gone by, said no about, and walked away from have turned out being the right decision, often I would just see why later. People would argue with me saying it was just being me afraid of relationships, which in an extent, could be true. But then afterwards I have had the same people come up to me and say “yeah, I see it now that you guys would have never worked even though I thought you were crazy before b/c it seemed perfect.”
So then I think, yeah, I’m good to be this way. But then what about when I actually start to like a person? What do I do then?
Who knows…I’m not malicious about how I view guys, but especially after being in college, it has reinforced the belief how so many guys are so good at saying the right thing, making you feel special, make themselves seem like they are a great guy but they are PRETENDING, or just not supper genuine, just saying or doing stuff they know works.
Now is that how its supposed to be? I’ve heard love is a game. But I think it should be sincere if that’s the case.
Sometimes I feel like a jerk b/c I just don’t buy the nice compliments a guy will give me. I think of it as just a “line” or what not.
But I say nice things to my friends or whoever all the time that could be considered a “line” that isn’t very sincere. But I really don’t give compliments unless I really believe them as true.
So couldn’t other people be the same way? Sure they can, but when it comes to a guy who is interested in me that says them, I think of it as a totally different story, Which is probably not so nice of me, but that’s just my reaction. I don’t do it purposely.
Call it cynical or what you want, but I’m just a very suspicious person when it comes to that sort of thing
I’m so afraid of falling for someone who seems great but is really just putting on a façade.
I can always tell fake from fraud when it comes to my friends, so far I have yet to be wrong about my instincts on the guy or a girl that my friends date, but when it comes to someone your interested, your vision gets cloudy. That’s just what happens.
I’m usually too suspicious about everything to get to that point of being clouded, but if I do, I don’t have anyone to really tell me what they think b/c most of my friends just want me to finally date.
I don’t even know where I’m going with this. Basically I just need to learn how to trust guys a little bit more. I trust my guy friends, and I mostly have guy friends. But I trust them b/c they are just staying friends. There is no perusal of anything further. But I don’t want to trust the wrong guy and get hurt, or be one of those stupid girls who fall for the wrong guy.
Ok, I don’t know what I’m thinking. I still don’t even know what I’m trying to get across…I had an idea in the beginning but lost it along the way.
Whatever. I’m a lost cause