& she reapears only to disapear again
so, im at stinas house right now. yes i got a chance to come online so i decided to write in this thing again. instead of going to california me and steen are going to hawaii. im so psyched about our little vacation. we'll be there for about 11 or 12 days. hopefully we have a blast! i can't believe my mom is still letting me go. about two days ago, i got fucking hammered. i swear to gawd i was shit faced and i came home puking my guts out. my mom had to take care of me. she wasnt even all that mad which was a relief. now she knows that im not better like she believed before. so i wanted to say i love you jeddalyn for calling me and checking up on me. just proved to me that you really do care. and katie i love you and miss you like crazy. maybe when we go to LA airport you can see me if you feel like driving that far. i dont know how long ill be at that airport but ill try to call you. evie i miss you. celia...you left me a comment!!!! i heard you and jedd met. im jealous :/ well i love you all. xoxo remember to live life to its fullest because you only die once! hah