I don't blame you for being you, But you cant blame me for hating it...
Everyone is changing
and it doesnt even matter that it hurts.
or that it shouldnt happen, that i dont want it to
and it seems like im losing everything i had.
Who caused this?
What went wrong?
Where did we start to make mistakes of the biggest kind?
Will things ever be the same...?
Why do things have to change?
How did this happen....?
and nothing may be answered, or maybe this will all be over tomorow. maybe i will wake up, and realize that i havent lost a single friend. that rickys still alive, and that everything will be okay. that laurens still there, and that people who i thought were hypocrites no longer are. and maybe with them ill be able to laugh, at all the stupid things we used to say, and the dumb things we used to do. i dont know. i doubt anything will be the same, and i just wish i had someone to blame.
cause problems would be easier solved with something like patience involved.
and we can lie, swear, and throw around names, but nothing could ever be a detriment to this pain.
no matter which path we choose, or which way we go, whether our paths cross again, or we just never look into the others eyes, i want everyone to know that im hear. no matter what was said or done these past few weeks, a few weeks does not ruin a lifetime of laughs, late night ramen noodles, and getting called ignorant pig asses. nothing could ruin that. i love you.
xoxox
Goodnight and Goodbye
Jess
and it doesnt even matter that it hurts.
or that it shouldnt happen, that i dont want it to
and it seems like im losing everything i had.
Who caused this?
What went wrong?
Where did we start to make mistakes of the biggest kind?
Will things ever be the same...?
Why do things have to change?
How did this happen....?
and nothing may be answered, or maybe this will all be over tomorow. maybe i will wake up, and realize that i havent lost a single friend. that rickys still alive, and that everything will be okay. that laurens still there, and that people who i thought were hypocrites no longer are. and maybe with them ill be able to laugh, at all the stupid things we used to say, and the dumb things we used to do. i dont know. i doubt anything will be the same, and i just wish i had someone to blame.
cause problems would be easier solved with something like patience involved.
and we can lie, swear, and throw around names, but nothing could ever be a detriment to this pain.
no matter which path we choose, or which way we go, whether our paths cross again, or we just never look into the others eyes, i want everyone to know that im hear. no matter what was said or done these past few weeks, a few weeks does not ruin a lifetime of laughs, late night ramen noodles, and getting called ignorant pig asses. nothing could ruin that. i love you.
xoxox
Goodnight and Goodbye
Jess