Mar 08, 2004 23:07
What a weekend, not much happened, yet so much did...if that makes ANY sense what so ever...
So Saturday i went over to Claire's after work and a shower just to gossip, try on her new Dior jewlerry and generally fuck about. She got a phonecall from Ainsley, and next thing i knew i had 10 mins to get, money, jecket and keys because i was going to the pics with Claire and Ainsley.
Rush rush, but i made it, so we picked up Ainsley and Claire drove us into town. That was the start of the trouble lol.
With as usual Claire's music booming in the car, we hunted for a parking space, and ended up parked at the very top of the huge kickass parking place. Ainsley found me trying to use a mobile to book our tickets very musing cause i'm shite on mobiles lol, i kept getting cut off but we eventually worked it out.
Finding a seat was another laugh, we ended up way up the back, the film was Uptown Girls, i have to compromise since Ainsley and Claire i think prefare sweety teen films, but actually i really enjoyed it...yeh nearly cried again...lets not go there lol.
I havn't been out much since then, i kind of locked myself in my house, trying to do all the things needing attention that i've put off for so long.
DETOX-ing, in a way lol. I have only ate one small meal today and the only other thing thats passed my lips is water, ill do this for about a month, one meal and lots of water till i feel more together. Another thing i do when i get like this is i throw out things i have tried to keep and justify keep but never actually use.
And the last part of this is i try to do something noone would expect me to do, or i'd even expect myself to do to 'brach out' in my opinion.
I got a invite to the Cathouse unders, ok i know that sentece alones like u have to be joking Ash but i'm not. I'm 17, everyone i know is older than me, i actually don't socialise with anyone my age apart from two girls i went to school with which i only shop with. This has never bothered, but i think maby i should give it ago, this girl Cat is my age and we can talk for ages on the phone even though she's a little mad lol. I think if i go and hate it, then fine at least i gave it a shot...i'm guessing this will be the outcome but fuck it.
I havn't bn to the Cathouse for two yrs, lat time i went Charlene was still a under too lol, i didn't think i'd go back till i was 18. But Andy my big cousin might be working so that might prompt me to go.
I've got over a lot of things this weekend...lol
<3Ash,xxx.