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so i started and finished most of my christmas shopping. and mostly i devised a plan how to get myself out of debt by this time next year. im hiding my credit cards. there not really that useful to me anyways. were starting a boardgame clubish sort of thing.
mikes only gettin just a few things this year. but they were well thought out. and i love him dearly. plus i wouldnt want him to smell bad.
my heart is realigned. not that the phone ringing isn't still making me a bit jumpy. but now its just a friend on the other line. and thats all i need. i want our lives to work out. seeing d and beans baby. something changed. i need to get responsible. feel better about my choices.hold on. music change.
im also consumed by a bet with my best girlfriend to drop a dress size. then buy snazzy ones and throw a cocktail party. im pumped. i have one month. lets see. i cut out pop. completly. green tea with no additives for me.
shopping was a dream yesterday. oh. and i finally made it to that cute resteraunt that i wanted to get to. was waitin for someone to take me. glad i went. im done waiting for things to happen. im doing them myself now. not my fault if he misses out. im loved. in love. just working on the part whether im in love with us or the idea of us. either way. love is still in the air
turkey tomorrow shuffling between relatives houses. chaos. lovley organized chaos
as for tonight. no drinking to be done by i short of a glass of red wine. i dont want the toxins. i want a clear head for a month.
i can do this. the greeks didnt have obitiuarys. all they asked when a man died was.."did he live with passion"
more later.
mikes only gettin just a few things this year. but they were well thought out. and i love him dearly. plus i wouldnt want him to smell bad.
my heart is realigned. not that the phone ringing isn't still making me a bit jumpy. but now its just a friend on the other line. and thats all i need. i want our lives to work out. seeing d and beans baby. something changed. i need to get responsible. feel better about my choices.hold on. music change.
im also consumed by a bet with my best girlfriend to drop a dress size. then buy snazzy ones and throw a cocktail party. im pumped. i have one month. lets see. i cut out pop. completly. green tea with no additives for me.
shopping was a dream yesterday. oh. and i finally made it to that cute resteraunt that i wanted to get to. was waitin for someone to take me. glad i went. im done waiting for things to happen. im doing them myself now. not my fault if he misses out. im loved. in love. just working on the part whether im in love with us or the idea of us. either way. love is still in the air
turkey tomorrow shuffling between relatives houses. chaos. lovley organized chaos
as for tonight. no drinking to be done by i short of a glass of red wine. i dont want the toxins. i want a clear head for a month.
i can do this. the greeks didnt have obitiuarys. all they asked when a man died was.."did he live with passion"
more later.